Diary Of An Everyday Girl Who Really Couldn't Think Of A Better Title

29/1/17

To be fair I don't even know why I'm writing this and I honestly don't really care either but if you are one of those people who hate when their parents don't respect them even thought they expect you to respect them or the kind of person who will stay under the blanket as long as they can even if it means that you will have to miss your breakfast.....I have a feeling that you are at least a bit like ne and that you will understand what I will mean :). This is just going to be some kind of......book, well it isn't really a book ....more like a diary of some wierd girl who nobody likes. Oh well enough about me.....its a book damn it I can't say that...its not really a conversation.....Oh well it is like half ten on a sunday night I can't always be perfect. Funny how I say that even though most of the time I feel the exact opposite.

Today was sunday. Which means resting all day for some people. Well I got woken up at ten today by my lovely parents :( and then they made me eat breakfast. How horrible isn't it? * if you didn't get ut it was sarcasm* so I basically didn't do anything all day....whop whop....the one they I get off from chores. Still, my mum couldn't shut up: "Why are you still eating? It Is eight a clock at night now! You shoud have finished eating by now! ", "Your grandad asked you to something for him BEFORE CHRISTMAS but you still haven't done anything!" And "Tomorrow I need you to do the dishes? Okay and thy better be fresh and clean!"....I could go on forever but I can't be bothered. And while she is just standing there telling me how lazy I am and that I don't do anything, my stepdad is just having a laugh about our argument. ...great what a fucking asshole! Like mom, please I love you and everything but just shut your fucking mouth, for once just once, but no she keeps going on and on and on. Great, I wish I could just stand up for myself but if I try to say anything I get the good old "How dare you speak to your mother? You don't have to be a fucking asshole just because you are a teenager! " from my stepdad. It is really fucking annoying how they think that having an opinion is the same as puberty. Like I haven't said anything bad in the las 13 years....I think I'm old enough to stand up for my rights but no "You are a child....have some respects for the adults! Your attitude is really getting out of hand!". Just, shut, it. Three simple words.

Enough about parents because they're starting to piss me off again :{ . I have two friends: one of them is my ex and we broke up about a week ago and the other one is a guy who has a crush on me but he got rejected.... as a girl in the middle of the situation I had to be the messenger between them because they won't talk to eachother. The whole thing was about a fricking comment george made *the guy who got rejected* and then he couldn't shut up about me and the other guy so it just went down as an argument. ...the whole thing lost it's point after a while so meh I got bored of it pritty quickly.

What else happened today?.....I talked to my ex about this obviously and I asked him if he felt good now after we broke up. He told me he was good and honestly I got over him. It took me some time but I'm fine.......but his response wasn't what I was expecting. ...I don't know I want him to be happy and me to be happy as well I just don't know......does this make me a bad person? By the way the thing between us didn't really work out because I wasn't ready....so it isn't even his fault and I do feel really bad for him.....I'm confused about my own feelings ; ( does anyone else gets this?

I feel lonely now that none of my friend are online anymore I should get some sleep. Yay to morrow is................monday......fuck this why are the weekends so short ; (. Oh well ammm if you are reading this...tell me if it is boring or just like how you felt. I'm interested in people's feed back. Thanks. But I gotta stop comparing myself to other people's opinion....wow depressing shit again oh well see ya. :) happy fucking monday everyone