if they knew

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by markwhittall

by markwhittall

I'm Imogen/mark this is my book part of this story is based on real events in my life.

*trigger warning*

-jack-

I woke up at 6:30 am I was hard to sleep last night because some issues of overthinking. I tried to get out of bed it didn't work I hated waking up to face the world there was only one thing I want on my mind that was mark (markiplier). I wanna tell mark how I feel but I cant I'm scared he will hate my and I will never be accepted I hardly had any friend I was always alone, cold, depressed it was so sad the fact I cant do the things I wanna because of my depression and anxiety. its like ur drowning but your watching everyone breath around you. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to the bathroom and quickly opening a draw full of blades and pills. I rolled up my sleeve and bit my lip and lashed the blade at my pasty white skin. the satisfaction of watching the blood pour down my arm. I lashed the blade more and I started to feel dizzy.

-mark-

I was going to surprise jack with a few video games to play. I knocked on the door and noticed it was open I walked in slowly calling out for jack there is no reply.

*starts to worry and shouts jacks name louder no reply*

I saw the bathroom light was on so I rushed into the bathroom to notice jack on the floor. I sobbed loudly screaming for help. thank god Felix to neighbour was next door he ran In an saw jack he quickly grabbed his phone and called 911,

-jack-

I woke up but the room was not mine I was in a hospital. I saw a weeping man next to the bed it was mark. "m-mark" mark screamed "OH MY GOD JACK YOUR ALIVE" I felt marks arms wrap around me I felt safe. its not fair mark had to see me like this "I'm s-sorry mark I d-didn't know y-you were coming over" I said shamefully. mark was in tear then wisped quietly "wh-why did y-you do it jack I could have lost you" I sigh sofly "its hard to explain" I looked down. "you know you can tell me anything you can trust me " mark wimped. "i don't want to ruin anything" tears started forming in my eyes. "tell me jack" mark said slightly louder than before." I cant mark its to hard to explain". "JACK JUST TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG GOD DAMN IT" mark shouted quite loudly. "I LOVE YOU OKAY THERE I SAID IT YOU HAPPY NOW" I snapped back at mark. "you d-do for how long" mark started to turn red. "well ever since I met you I started falling for you and I knew you wouldn't want a faggot like me anyways so I kept it in for two years and now it killing every part of me" I looked down crying slightly. "j-jack I-I" mark tried to speak but was cut off by jack. "u don't need to say anything I know I'm a fag" jack sobbed. mark grabbed jack and pulled him in to a heated kiss "i loved you all along jack"

* time to skip two weeks*