My 5th anniversary with you [KWANGMIN]

This is your 5th anniversary with your boyfriend, kwangmin. You really excited this years because He made a big promises with you 5 years ago, when the first time you be his girlfriend. he told you in the first night he be your boy, ‘’ I wanna be with you forever, I don’t know why, I really love you, I can’t stop thinking about you, all about you. Ya!! I wanna still be like that, promise me you will be with me always, don’t leave me before i ask you to leave me, nae? I promise when we together until 5 years I will give you a big present’’.  he always gave you a gift every anniversary. The first anniversary he gave you many pikachu stuff, he told you “I really love you, more than I love Pikachu, I give pikachu to you because i wanna you remember about me and be with me every night and you can look at this Pikachu when you miss me” 

your second anniversary he bought you plastic flower for you, he told you his loves never die for you like plastic, although you never took care about his love, he just stay in the same placeto always love you. He told you in your second anniversary ‘’ just stay with me, you just must stay beside me, breath, and smile for me, that enough for me. I never ask you to do anything just that’’.

Third anniversary he bring you to the park and had dinner together, when you and kwanggie eat, you see a star fall from sky, then you said with him’’ kwang, look at that, let’s us make a wishes!’’ then he said ‘’ nae!’’. After that he ask you ‘’ what’s your wishes? ’’ , then you said ‘’ you must told me your wishses first!’’, he said ‘’ my wishes?, just you will always love me and be with me and beside me when I’m die’’. You really speechless when you heard that, you never imagine how can he told you like that. ‘’ ya!! How can I beside you and see you die?’’ you beat his arm. ‘’ ya! Just a wishes, don’t too worry’’ then he smile at you, and touch your cheek. ‘’ ah what your wishes?’’ he asked you more to change your mood but it’s failed.

Your fourth anniversary was celebrated in the beach, you and kwanggie was in vocation, you and kwanggie sat and seen a sunset, he said, ‘’this is just 1 year again, aren’t you excited?’’. And you said ‘’ I really excited with this, can’t you tell me? Just a little about your present!, please babe, I just wanna know a few thing’’. Then he laugh, kiss your forehead, hold your hand and said ‘’ ya! Just be patient my beloved princess, I will give it to you later, don’t to hurry you only must to waiting one years, you have been wait for 4 years it’s easy to you for one years anymore, I never be die before I give it to you babe, I promise’’. You just smile and kiss his cheek.

Today, your 5th anniversary he call your cellphone when you still sleep, you hear his voice ‘’ yeoboseyo, happy 5th  anniversary nae? I wish we can be longer than this but I think we can’t!!’’. you really shocked with his word, ‘’ what? You say what? Tell me once more!’’ you not believe your ear, but your tears have fall down to your cheek. ‘’ mianhae, jeongmal mianhae yeobo, I will tell you later, can we meet today?, I will waiting you in my mom boutique this evening, can you?’’, you really shocked and not say anything until he end the call. You never imagine kwangmin tell a bad thing to you, as long as you be his girlfriend he always take care about your feeling, but now he really make you broken heart, hear his word really make you hurt, it was 5 years relationship. Many question in your mind ‘’ why now? Why when I really love him?, why I can’t leave him but he can?, why must you? Why 5 years? Why? Why? And why?, you just cry, cry, and cry, you never thing kwanggie will do something like that with you, kwanggie so cruel this time. You meet him with red eyes in his mom boutique’s, you can’t think something else anymore, you just think about kwanggie’s reason do something bad like that. When you meet with him you just silent until he talk to you, ‘’ ya!! You cry?’’ he catch your face, and see your eyes. ‘’ why you wanna meet me? I don’t have many time, just hurry up!’’. Then he smile, and ask you ‘’ you not ask me why about something?’’. You sigh and say ‘’ no’’. kwanggie smile again and hold your face in front of his fce, you and kwanggie see ayes to ayes. He say ‘’ I can’t because I really wanna marry you, I can’t be your boyfriend anymore because I wanna be your husband babe, please don’t think bad about me, you know I really love you and never let you go nae, I wanna meet you here because I wanna give my present to you, look at these wedding dress ( his hand out from your face) I make it for 5 years, I learn how to designa dress, I learn how to make a dress, and many more just for you, and now I wanna give it to you, I really wanna see you standing beside me wear these dress’’. You can’t hold your tears, you too fast thinking bad about kwanggie, you speechless and you just cry  infront of him. He smile and catch your body and hugging you with love. Then he kiss your hands and ask you ‘’will you marry me?’’

Kwanggie so cute today, you never see him cutest than today, you just look at him, and without say anything, you and kwanggie going dinner together tonight, you really happy today, you never as happy as this night, you always smile when you look at him. He say ‘’ ya!! Don’t always smile like that, it’s feel weird!’’. You laugh then say ‘’ I really happy today, because this  boy make me cry, and then he give me a wedding dress, I can’t explain my feelings today, it’s too much to explain and understand’’. He just smile. 

Kwanggie take you back with his motorcycle, he look so cool with his motorcycle, he look so manly ride it. He ride so fast and it make you so scary, you hug his body so strong, and you really worry too. ‘’ yaa!! can you slower ??’’ you ask him. ‘’ are you love me??’’ he ask you back with another topic, ‘’ yes, I love you! But can you slower? I really afraid!’’. ‘’ I can’t hear your voice, tell me once more, loudly please!’’. ‘’ yes! I really love you!’’. Then he say ‘’take my helmet’’. You not ask anymore and just doing to take his helmet. You feel better now but suddenly, kwanggie’s motorcycle can’t to control, it’s hit a car.

You wake up 2 hour after the accident, you see your mom stand beside you, she is cry. You say ‘’ mom, you here? Aish why all of my body so hurt, why I’m? where I’m? where kwanggie,mom??’’, so many question make yor mom so confuse. ‘’ you got a accident 2 hour ago, when you back from dinner with kwanggie’’. ‘’ so, where my kwanggie mom??’’. ‘’ he still not wake up yet’’. ‘’ mwo?? Are you kidding me??’’. ‘’ no honey, kwanggie so bad today, he hurt so much, he lost many blood, and his face….’’ your mom not complete her word, she just cry. You remember the last time with him, he told you to take his helmet and then your tears fallin down, you can’t imagine what happened with you, you just silent.

You walk to kwanggie’s room but you not arrived yet, you see doctor out from his room, and you hear their conversation about kwanggie, he can’t help anymore. You really not believe with your ear, you hope your ear was wrong about something, your tears can’t stop, you just walk to kwanggie’s room like an idiot, you nearly faint, you not hear people says anymore, you just walk to kwanggie’s room.

You see kwanggie’s body was covered, you really want to not believe your eyes but it’s real and you not wanna be closer anymore, you talk to yourself ‘’ please wake up, it’s not real!’’. You try to be stronger to walking and see his body, you open the cover, then you cry, you fall down and faint.

‘’ don’t cry my beloved princess!’’ kwanggie’s voice surprise you, ‘’ you here? You still here? Aish, so relievable, don’t leave me please!, you’re so cruel!!, you always ask me to stay beside you but you leave me alone! You said with me you wanna seen me wear your wedding dress beside you, and now you leave me?’’ you begin cry. He smile and hugging you, ‘’ honey, I’ll never leave you, may be you can’t see me, but I will always stay here be with you, here, inside your heart, I’m more closer with you than before, promise me to be stronger nae? Don’t cry, just keep smile for me, i beg you’’. You just still cry and slower kwanggie just be shadow and lost. You wake up and cry again.

A year was pass. It’s still hard to believe someone you love die, all place you see make your heart so hurt but it’s nice because you can still remember him. You can be strong because you  always remember, when he said in your dream ‘’ I WILL ALWAYS STAY HERE. HERE, INSIDE YOUR HEART!!’’.