Ana // h.s //

02

Hello Harry,

You keep on rushing around the school, gazing at god knows how many people.

How come you’ve not glimpsed in my direction yet.

Ana said it’s because I’m still too obese.

She said If I don’t eat for two weeks. You’ll see me, I can’t wait, it’s already been a week and a half.

Two more days.

- A

I lay on my bed crying, “Ana you promised me!”

I lied. You’re still to fat.

“Ana you promised Harry would notice me,” I sobbed, “You’re a liar! I hate you!”

No you don’t. You need me. I help you to perfect. You want to be perfect, don’t you? Because if not, I’ll leave.

“Nonononono,” I yelped, “I’m so sorry. I don’t hate you, Please.”

Calm down Alice. You will meet him, when you’re perfect.

“Okay,” I breathed. “When I’m perfect.”

My stomach rumbled painfully. I cried out and grasped onto my stomach, then coiled in on myself. The cramps had droplets oozing from my eyes and dripping down onto the purple sheets.

"Darling? Are you okay?" My mum asked from outside my room.  

"I'm fine mum, I just have bad cramps." I panted as the ache intensified. 

"Are you on your period Alice?"

"Yes," I lied. "I'm feeling really faint, I think I'm going have a nap."

"Okay. I will put some of the roast in the microwave. You will eat in the morning, okay?"

"Okay!"

I hope you're lying Alice. You better be lying.

"Yes Ana," I whispered, "I'm lying."

-Author's Note- 

I love writing this. As messed up as that sounds. It feels easy to think of the words to write. I hope you enjoyed reading. This book, as said before, might be triggering, so please, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here, for every single one of you.

s.m

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