Loving him

Chapter 1

" Rose!" I've heard my mother shout from downstairs " please, don't tell me that you're still in bed" well I'm sorry that I have to disappoint you, but yes I am still in bed on a Saturday afternoon. Then the door to my room burst open and my mother entered with a very suspicious look on her face. "hey mom... what's up ?" Yepp I know pretty awkward.

"Get up, Ryan will be here in 15 minutes." Wait, what Ryan? "What do you mean by Ryan will be here in fifteen, I didn't invite him" I really hope that she is just trying to get me out of bed "well I kind of called him and told him that he should come over and take you to a club or something" after that my mother didn't dare to look me in the eyes so she kept her gaze on my nightstand. "How could you do this to me I am 23 years old. I think that's old enough to make my own decisions about whether I go out or stay in bed" I said standing up from my bed and going in to the bathroom. "I'm sorry, I'm just worried about you" I've heard my mom say with sadness and guilt in her voice. "I know you are" with that I closed the doors.

Oh no he will be here in 10 minutes and I looked like a mess, I run to my closet and took some black jeans and a red cropped hoodie. I put on my clothes and a little bit of makeup and looked in the mirror. I wouldn't call my self ugly but I also don't think that I look beautiful. "Rose hurry up, Ry is here" at the thought of seeing him I immediately smiled and forgot about all the crap my mind was giving me.

I took my purse and walked downstairs. Ryan was already there chatting with my mom. "Hey Rose I missed you so much" he said and pulled in a big hug "I missed you too Ry" my heart started to beat faster, it felt so good and so right, my mind always wondering about his thoughts while hugging me, did he feel the same or maybe not. In that moment I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs how much i loved him but I just couldn't do it.

"I'm taking you to this new club in the town" Ryan said placing one arm around my shoulder, he was smiling from ear to ear, he looked so happy. "Are we going alone?" I asked, I hope he didn't invite his girlfriend that would make everything ten times harder. "Ohh about that, Veronica is coming with us and I didn't want you to feel left out so I invited Jack. He told me he liked you so I thought that maybe you could get to know each other better." He seemed a little bit nervous, probably because he thought that I'd be angry but I wasn't. I know that he was only trying to make me happy and i mean just look at him how could I ever be angry with him. He had those beautiful green eyes and that smile of his..."Rose everything alright?" I zoned out didn't I ?Ughh dammit I probably looked like an idiot "yeah, yeah I'm fine let's go have some fun" I turned around and gave my mom a kiss on the cheek and walked out the door.

"So how is life?" I asked, he turned his head and looked at me "pretty good I got my first promotion two weeks ago, and Veronica just got her first photoshoot so yeah.. but what about you?" Uhm what about me.."I got a new job at the Martinez industries, the pay is good and everyone is nice to me so I can't complain." I said. "You mean the one that is run by that billionaire? What was his name again... oh yeah Bruno Martinez." Does he know him? "Yes I work as his PA, why do you ask? Do you know him?" He had a weird look on his face I couldn't put an emotion to it so I just waited for him to say something. "No I don't but someone I know works at his company, maybe you know him his name is David Daniels." I'm sure I've heard this name somewhere before "ohh yeah he is the one that takes care of all the social media, I haven't spoken to him but he seemed like a nice guy" as I said that he parked the car and got out I did the same and followed him into the club. "Let's not talk about work anymore we are here to have some fun aren't we?" He said while opening the door for me "you're right" I said and walked further into the club, Ryan then took me by my arm and led me to the table in the corner of the room where Veronica and Jack were already waiting for us.

"Hey Rose I haven't seen you in a while how is everything going?" Victoria asked friendly, she was one of the reasons why I kept my love for Ryan a secret she wasn't stupid, she wasn't a bitch, she was literally an angel. I sat next to Jack and fixed my gaze on her "I was pretty busy with my new job so I didn't have much time to go out" I answered as fast as I could. "I'm going to order some drinks guys, I'll be back in a minute" Ryan said and walked off to the bar. My anxiety kicked in the moment I was left alone with Jack and Vic. It's not that I didn't like them I just didn't feel comfortable being alone with them."Rose would you dance with me?" Jack asked putting his hand on mine waiting for an answer. I realized that I couldn't just say no to him it would be rude of me, so I just agreed and walked to the dance floor with him.

After 2 hours of drinking and dancing I could tell that I was a little tipsy. That was my cue to leave. I would never forgive myself if I got drunk and said something that could ruin someone's life and my friendship. I got up and told them that I felt tired and wanted to go home. Jack offered to go with me, but I didn't want anyone with me. I felt like being alone right now, after everything I've seen today my heart needed some time alone. So I told him that I'd rather go alone trying not to sound rude.

Ryan stood up and said that he will help me to get to the cab then Veronica gave him a peck on the lips. Seeing that my heart shattered into million pieces. I didn't want to cry in front of them so I  said my goodbyes and walked off towards the exit. "Did you have fun?" Ry asked when we were outside waiting for the cab, but the only thing I could think about was his voice it was music to my ears I could listen to him all day long. I imagined him kissing me like he kissed her but then reality hit me and suddenly there were tears rolling down my cheeks. "Rose are okay, why are you crying?" He asked and then I felt his hand on my cheek wiping my tears away. "It's nothing I just.. it's nothing okay" he looked at me definitely not believing my lie so I just told him that I'd give him a call in the morning and after that I stepped into the cab without looking back at him. It was one of the hardest things to do, every time I walked away from him it felt as if I was loosing him.

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Hello y'all I hope you liked it. English is my third language so if you see any mistakes feel free to point them out 👍🏻
Polish is my first language but since i live in the Netherlands I also speak Dutch. You can message me if you have any questions 😊

Lots of love,
K.