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A secret lover

April 5th 2117
Ze means he/she gender neutral
  Okay, somebody just sent me the following message and it was unsigned so I do not know who.

"My sweet treasured Baby... big kisses 'n snuggles... this day on Earth was the happiest day for me. This day was the best gift from God that changed my days forever. I'd never felt such bliss, such oneness, such a bond, such love... such zest for life until you arrived... in your special way... Thank you for our walk, for the heart you brought to the windows when I looked for it... I'm so proud of you... for so many things... and you taught me so many things. I learned to love more than I ever thought I could before. I learned to accept more than I ever felt. You're so smart 'n magical. You've been here and I've seen... When I feel weak I remember your strength. When I feel like life is hard I see you at the finish line. I love life for you, with you, following the lights towards you. Forever I will smile. I will laugh. I will dance and I will run in rainbows to life with u here by my side, so you too are happy... Celebrate in the other land, dance, run play 'n laugh... with God, the Angels 'n all our family on this special day. Thank you God, dear Angels, family 'n animal family for cherishing my princess, my fairy love... my soul mate... Dance my beauty. In heaven, they sing knowing we're always together. Just a realm away... to poke through, as you do... as you have, my smart amazing magical baby... All my forever love... I'm always here or there... just a thought away... then, here, now 'n there... yours forever.

xoxoxoxoxo xoxoxox... With my infinite boundless love that reaches you everyday in every way."

Okay, mystery time, detective hat on. I have to go through all the people I know. Hmm, not Sam. Ze would never think in such a way. At least Sam would never use words like that. Who believes in fairies? Maybe Kim. Kim is it you? They mention a special day. What special day? They talk about heaven and God and nobody is religious nowadays. At least nobody I know or maybe, hmm?

They Mention me being smart many times. I like that. Who thinks I am smart? I do not think I am a princess. You all know me, any suggestions?
Comments:
Kerry says maybe it's somebody that You used to date.
Sam says to come over and bring your tech. I will trace the message.
Zo says maybe its a stalker that has gotten a little crazy over me.
Laura says maybe its an alien from another realm.
Kim says why doesn't anybody say that about Kim.
Those are all great comments and Kim you're a beautiful soul.

Okay, I guess I will meet Sam and bring this tech to find the answer. Meeting Ze at yet another new juice bar. This one has pets as servers. My only problem with this concept is that dogs are not that hygienic and maybe should not be bringing you juice in their mouth. It is kind of disgusting! So, Sam took the tech and is going to get back to me.

You know when I was in the juice bar, one of the dogs was wearing a cross and when I took that trip to pet town I did see a church. Rumor is some pets are quite religious. Could it be a pet, hmmm? Okay, time for a quick poll. Press 1 if you think it is somebody that I used to date, 2 if you think it is a crazy stalker, 3 if you think it is an alien, 4 if you think it an enhanced pet, 5 if you think I got the message by mistake some how. Okay, Sam just messaged me. Ze wants to meet in person to give me the results. Strange, why doesn't Sam just tell me, very mysterious Sam.

Okay, I just arrived at Sam's place. I am shaking about to go into full body shock. Ze just told me that it was somebody that I would never believe would send that message. It was Darlene, my friend, who is becoming a dog. Why would Darlene send a message like that? Does Darlene still love me that much? Why can't we still be together then? I am so confused. What should I do? Should I write Darlene back? If so, what should I say? Maybe I should go and see Ze in person. I don't know if I have the strength after our last visit. I cried for days. Oh, I so do not know what to do. Come on people suggestions here.
Comments:

Zo says to follow my heart, do what it says.

Kerry says that I have to love, that I have to feel. It is the reason that I am here on Earth. I am here to risk my heart. I am here to be swallowed up. Be swallowed up. Follow my heart.
Kerry what does my heart say? I don't know.

Kim says the emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it.

Laura says love never dies. It never goes away. It never fades, so long as you hang onto it.

Argh! Sorry you people are just making me more confused. Okay, I know a little about Darlene's schedule. I will go see Darlene.

Everything is spinning around me, I can hear my heart beating loudly in my temples. I am shaking a little. No, I guess I am shaking a lot. My mind is racing with fear, love, sadness. Yes, you guessed it. I saw Darlene. Now I think I am going to explode inside with too much emotion. I feel love. I feel hate. I feel joy. I feel anger. I feel sadness. How can one feel all of these things at the same time? I do. It's crazy! I think I am going crazy! Darlene, you are making me crazy!
Comments:

Sam says to get over here right now!
Kim says if you want to talk I am here.
Zo says what happened? I want details? I do not think I have the strength for details. Okay Sam, I will be right over.

Okay, I am sort of stable now. Sam diffused me right before I was about to literally explode. Still the tears do seem to keep flowing from my eyes. How can somebody love you and not be with you? It is such a juxtaposition.
Comments:

Ariel says A veil hangs between the two opposites, a mere slip of a thing that is transparent to warn us or comfort us. You hate now but look through this veil and see the possibility of love; you're sad now but look through to the other side and see happiness Absolute composure to a complete mess - it happens so quickly, all in a blink of a eye. I never thought of that Ariel.

Kerry says "Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within." So true Kerry.

Zo says that I have to move on.
I know. I know. Sam says the same but it is so hard.

Laura  says do the hard thing. Cut off contact. I can't do that to Darlene. Never!

Randy says I'm selling my talking dog why because yesterday, the bastard tried to sell me haha randy you are that is an absolutlely tasteless joke you are  blocked permanently.

I will do some meditation on all this. Okay the winner of the poll was one, somebody that I used to date. Zo another hat for you. Good night all. I am so so very tired...

Okay, I cannot sleep. I cannot stop shaking. I think that I have a massive earthquake inside about to go richter 10. I have to think this through. Darlene loves me a lot but also wants to complete the transformation to become a dog. I cannot be a dog. I cannot love a dog? I can love a dog. I just cannot love a dog forever as a partner or can I? No. What does Darlene truly want? Ze wants another dog to be with and I do not want to be a dog. I will not become a dog just because somebody wants me to. Why doesn't Darlene just stop this whole transformation to a dog thing and be with me forever? Argh, I so hate this. Everybody says follow my heart but what does my heart say? I do not know. My mind is racing all over the place. Time to try to mediate and take deep breaths. Think this thing through logically. Okay, one. Do I love Darlene? Yes. Two, does Ze love me? Yes. Three, what is stopping us from being together? Darlene wanting to become a dog is what is stopping us from being together. Argh! This is not helping. I am going to take a sleeping pill and ask mr sandman to give me some good dreams, hopefully tomorrow I will figure this thing out.  I have bad feeling about all this!