Sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with me. Am I too fat? Am I ugly? Do I smell?
I cry myself to sleep at night because these questions attack my brain with no mercy, they pick and pick at my self esteem like their vultures eating their last meal.
Tears fall from my eyes because I feel that my mind is slowly being twisted...scrambled and flipped.
What is happening to me? Why is this happening to me? I used to be so happy, so loyal and grateful of who I was.
I realized that I am not the person I used to be. I NEED you. I NEED my happiness in order to live..in order to keep me from doing what God never intends any of us to do.
My heart hurts and my mind is scared. Please help me. Guide me into being the person who can do for herself whenever she needs to. Who doesn’t need the love and acceptance of any male figures to make herself feel at least a bit of self worth.
Please...my mind is jumbled and I can’t fully understand what my heart is telling me.
I love you...I love you….I love you….when does that become real? When does that quiet the anxiety growing in my shaking body?
Tell me, because my heart...my mind...it won’t respond until you do.
