you are in my breath
like shitty whiskey
you're an acid trip and you're boiling in my head and in my blood
i stifle myself to keep from embarrassment
and the floor falls from my feet
cause i have been gone all along
and flying this whole time
i have been lying this whole fucking time
and giggling at night for something so shallow
for something so ridiculously cliche
if i give it to you i'll burn to a crisp
and curse myself for opening my lips i don't
know why i speak because my lips were
made to feel yours to taste you to know you to hold
you here to keep you to need you to fill me to
fill the void left in my hand four inches from yours
and your freckled cheeks and soft tresses and
your eyes and the way they gleam with ambition
and need and truth and strength and knowing
and i will never drown in your oceans
but i want to and i always have
i have since the first word you gave me
my first interests and my first introduction
i give all of my trust, you remove all of my conscience
and i didn’t want to but i did it anyway
so you joked so i joked to and it all turned up okay
so we talked about the mother and talked about christ
and cursed our fathers and stayed up at night
you’re gonna drop me so fucking quick
i hate you for being so flawless
i hate you for the lump in my throat when you touch him
and your lips meet his instead of mine
you touch me, but you don't feel
we'll never come together like that
