The Fake Smiles

Where To Begin

As we are born we create our own smile
Our own way of thinking.
I started a fake smile because of the pain I was in because I felt that life doesn't deserve me in it I thought if I took pills and cut the pain would go away I was wrong to others but to myself it made the pain go away seeing the blood drip down my white pale arm watching the movement of the knife scrape against my skin and feeling it rip open the layers of my arm slowly taking pill after pill feeling all the pain go away my eyes slowly rolling back my eyes slowly closing I could feel my self a drift away from the world all of a sudden it witch black I was finally at peace for that moment I thought I went into the light until I woke up and had a massive headache a cut arm and I was stirring out in the world I cried silently under the blinkers thinking to myself why life is so cruel why I can't breathe and why I can't smile I feel like my whole world is ending and I want it to stop I never wanna be in a place that has so much effort to prove yourself to everyone around you how can you sleep at night knowing that tomorrow's a mystery you don't know if someone's gonnea die
Or if you will die yourself

Slowly tripping all I see is destruction awakening in a far distance as I write these words I know realised all the pain from yesterday wasn't worth it all the tears that fell down for nothing all the comments that were given are now erased now that I feel this way I give up no more pain no more tears no more scars no more pills no more trust no more love they say life is all about mystery what's the point of founding out if something bad or good is going to happen why be surprised at what's a head of you when you can choose your own path why hold back when you can control what's gonnea happen if we leave tomorrow what's gonnea happen if we leave today how will the world change when someone disappears from it does it even change does it even effect our lives why be honest when you can lie why lie when you can tell the truth why hold back when you shine how can we change the face of our world when we don't like change we do what we know and we don't like differencesc