dear diary × n.h

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

it's me again. Yes i still don't get bored of sharing my thoughts with a book. It's so beautiful to know that someone cares about me..even if your just a simple leather book, i still love you so much. That's weird, isn't it? My life is pretty easy-going. My mom is still at work when I'm home and comes back when I start to fall asleep. I think it won't ever change. I miss talking to her, since i don't have real friends. I guess you listen to me...well you are a book. I have to study for my final exams next month. I'm so so excited. 

Wish me luck

Z. xx

and with that i closed my Diary. It's probably so immature for some people but i love it. I love writing my mind on a tiny piece of paper everyday. It makes me happy to know that "someone" actually listens to me. Well i kinda force my book to read my stories and stuff, but now let's talk about me.

I'm Zoe. I'm 19 years old and I live in a little town near London, only 10 minutes away. I'm more quiet since i don't have that many friends. Well i don't have friends at all and all that drama because I'm not that skinny. I mean i think I'm normal but people in my school are all that skinny and if you don't have a thigh gap or can see your bones you are a loser. I think that's it. I woke up from my thoughts by a knock on my door.

"Yes?", i muttered.

My Mom came in and her bright blue eyes were shining. She just sat on my bed, right in front of me. "How are you Zoe?", she asked. I'm confused. There must be something wrong. "I'm okay and now tell me why you're so happy"

"I'd tell you but it's a surprise"

"You know i hate surprises huh?"

"Of course i do", she laughed and walked away. I followed her confused. "Mom, what's wrong?"

she turns around slowly and smiles. Okay I'm scared. "I don't have to work tomorrow, which means shopping"

I smiled. "

"You mean in One New Change, right?"

"Of course" My smile grew even wider. Maybe I could make friends. Maybe not.

But now I should just go to sleep. I yawned and said:" Goodnight" to my mom and my two brothers.

I went in my room and changed into a cute purple pyjama. I quickly brushed my teeth and jumped in my bed.

I got my phone and still played a few games. I started to fall asleep after i put my phone on my charger.

***

I felt the sun burning on my eyes. I slowly opened my eyes just to close them again. What time is it? I opened my eyes and searched for my phone.  2 pm. I groaned.  Wait i only have half an hour to get ready. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I got out of bed and yawned. It's Friday but gladly i don't have school. I went to my wardrobe and pulled a blue hoodie,black skinny jeans,socks,underwear and golden vans out. I ran in the bathroom and took a quick shower. After getting dressed I walked to my accessoires shelf. I took a golden necklace. It's a simple necklace but i love it.  I just stood in front of the mirror and stared at my reflection in the mirror. My face looks so pale without makeup. It's hard to be accepted in school, since everyone is like in love with fake faces and tons of makeup. I personally don't like that at all. I have small lips and chubby cheeks. To be honest, i don't like having them. I look so fat with them. I also don't have a flat stomach either but I don't care. I mean i love food. I have long wavy brown hair and brown eyes. I really like my hair but I want bright blue eyes so much. Well i did a bit makeup on my face and smiled at my reflection. No, i don't smile because I think I'm pretty. I smile because i search for something beautiful. I walked out the bathroom. I heard my stomach grumble. I went into the kitchen and saw my mom. "Goodmorning love, or should i say Good afternoon?" 

"Sooo funny mom. Goodmorning to you too", i said as i rolled my eyes and smiled. "I know I'm funny", she said and gave me an apple, just like every morning. I took a bite of the apple as she told me "We are going in a few minutes already,since you are ready" I just nodded my head. I grabbed my normal things i put them in my little black bag. Just things like a mirror,my diary and my purse,even though the fact my mom is going to pay. I went into the hall and grabbed my black coat. My mom came just when i was ready and we went into our garage. I smiled and pointed to the Range Rover. My mom just giggled and we got in the car. And with that my mom started the engine.

Ok I'm so sorry i know it's short and please correct me because my native language isn't english but yeah ...sorry :) .