Stream of Consciousness

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by Jwhite1

by Jwhite1

You don't know me.

You don't know who I am.

You don't know what I've been through.

Yet you stand there and pretend to understand me.

You judge me, even though you haven't gone through even half of the things I have.

You cause more pain than you realize with your words and judgeful stares and thoughts.

You

Need

Stop

Please, just stop.

A.N. Ok guys. So some of you may not understand what the picture that I used, represents. I will try to explain it to the best of my abilities.

So obviously, glaciers are huge. And most of us know that a majority of a glacier stays hidden underneath water. As it travels it will get smaller, but the majority of it will still be underneath.

So, the chunk of the glacier that people can see, represents what people can actually and physically see about a person. It's basically the part of a person that you allow others to see.

-For example, when people look at me, they see someone who has no cares in the world, a good student, a very nice person, etc. (This is the top of the glacier).

The chunk of the glacier that is under the water, represents the parts of a person that we don't allow others to see. The part that may even be a more accurate representation of who a person is, than "the top of the glacier."

-So, with me, I actually do have a ton of issues and I'm a good student and truly care for others. But, underneath all of that, I actually have an extreme amount of pain. This is the part of me that would shock most people if they saw it.

Now, I'm not saying that the bottom part of glacier can't be seen by others without you showing it to them, because it can. I happen to have had coworkers who were able to see underneath the wall that I put up to protect myself. At first I couldn't stand it, but I grew to realize that I needed someone to see that part of me. I couldn't spend the rest of my life putting up this barrier just to seem strong, because in reality, it's slowly killing me. (Not really literally, but to some degree it is)

So I hope I was able to explain that to you better, even though not many people are reading this. I actually think only one of my other friends is reading this. Thanks for anyone who is actually reading this.