falling for the wrong guy// dolan twins

Chapter 13

Me: "Hey Ethan meet me at the rock in 20?" I hesitated before sending making sure I wanted to do this. I clicked send and started to get ready. I threw on ripped light jeans and a white coke-a-cola- shirt and brushed my hair. I only put on water proof mascara just in case I start crying. I kept checking my phone every few minutes to see if he responded, but he never did. After about 20 minutes I decided to still go to the rock. 

I got to the rock around 6pm and sat where I was last night. I kept checking my phone to see if he ever texted me or if he even saw it, but nothing. I sat there and waited and waited and waited and waited. My heart started to break again into a million pieces and all that was going through my mind was "how did this all go so wrong?" At about 8 after waiting 2 hours I decided that I should just leave. I got up super slow grabbing my phone and taking a deep breath. All the memories from the past few weeks kept replaying in my brain. I could feel the tears building in my eyes and the lump in my throat. I wanted to give up on love at the exact moment, but then something hit me. I can't let myself feel this way, I can't just give up on something that I love, something that I want. I quickly grabbed my stuff and started walking to Ethan's house. 

I got there and it was about 8:15 pm I slowly walked up to their front door as I did I took deep breaths to calm my nerves. All these negative thoughts were going through my brain and I couldn't get them to go away. Maybe he didn't come because he didn't want to see me? Maybe he hates me? Maybe I ruined it? All these maybes, but I did not let that stop me. There was no cars out front and I was praying that they just parked them in the garage. I slowly knocked on the door and I stood back and waited. It felt like time was going by so slow and I couldn't escape it. I heard the door being unlocked and I watched as It opened....

"Ethan?" I said grabbing the door handle...

"Nope its Gray, why whats up? Come in." He said opening the door welcoming in. I walked inside and just looked around and saw no sign of Ethan. 

"Are you looking for something?" Gray says grabbing my arm.

"Actually I am looking for someone. Wheres Ethan?" I said turning around staring him in his hazel eyes.

"He left early this morning saying that he needed to think, I haven't heard from him since. I was assuming he went to you.." Gray says confused looking at the time.

"No, I waited for him for hours and he never showed up.. What time did he leave?" I said getting nervous because all I wanted to do was see him, just look at him.

"About 12..Where could he be?" Grayson says super confused pulling up his text messages. I could see him typing something to Ethan. I kept thinking and thinking where he could be.. then one place finally comes to mind. One of the places we went when he was upset was chick-fil-a. It was a long shot, but I was desperate to do anything to see him. 

"Gray, I think I know where he is..." He grabs the keys and we head to the car. In the car Grayson and I didn't talk, but he played my favorite songs and I really wanted to sing and dance, but I just wasn't the mood of the car ride. When we pull up into the chick-fil-a parking lot I said..

"Grayson, I need to go in there by myself because if he's in there I really need to talk to him." I said hoping out of the car. I knew Gray was going to understand me so he just nodded. I walked slowly to the door and opened it. My eyes scanned the place and there he was. Right where we sat last time. He hasn't seen me yet and so I try to gather myself while walking towards him.

"Hey Ethan." I said in a mellow tone. He seemed so surprised when I was there and I couldn't tell if he was happy or sad. 

"Em-Emily wh-what are you doing here?" He says in a happy ish tone. 

"I wanted to talk to you so bad that I had to find you..." I say sitting down across from him.

"I am sorry for not going to the roc-" He tries to say but I interrupt him.

"Listen Ethan I came here to talk because I couldn't give up on us, we went through so much just to get to this? Im here to hear your side of the story and I have some stuff to say." I say looking at him straight in the eye. He handed me a nugget and looked down like he was trying to find the right words to say. I mean I don't even know what the right words to say would be. 

"Emily, what you saw the other night was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. The thing is was that I was so confused on what we were, I didn't know what to think. I just..." He paused looking straight at me... "I just have never felt like this before. I have never liked someone as much as I like you. My heart literally aches when I don't see you and I feel empty inside without you being here. I see your smile replaying in my head when I'm trying to sleep and I day dream about what we could be, well what we are. I never connected with someone the way I have with you and it really confused me. I was hoping by getting with that girl it would save me from feeling like this, from feeling this weird- ya know - the achy heart butterfly feeling.."  he says cracking a smile. My heart dropped into my stomach and all I could do was smile. I let him keep talking. "I asked her to come over because I needed a distraction but the whole time when I was with her all I could think about is you, you have completely taken over my brain. When you knocked on the door you saved me from going any farther than I was planning on. When I saw your face and when you said that to me, my whole life froze. I didn't mean to lie about the girl I just had no clue what I could do and when she came out and I saw your face. I could see the heart break in your eyes and man that just killed me. I told the girl to leave and that I would drop her off. When I got back home I talked to Grayson about everything and thank goodness I have him, without him I honestly have no clue where I would be. No matter how he felt about the things that have gone down he still loves me and  I hope you can too..." He says. 

I was in awe I couldn't think of anything to say I was completely frozen and this time that wasn't a bad thing. I got up and squished next to him in the booth and kissed him. I felt these sparks that I have never felt and my heart just fluttered with butterflies, and yes my heart and my stomach but mainly my heart. When our lips met I wanted to freeze time. Once our lip separated I looked him straight in the eyes and said

"Ethan Dolan, what you just explained was love. That feeling you have is the same that I do. So yes Ethan I love you. No matter what nothing can ever changed this. Thank you for making me feel some way that I never had. Ethan I love you I really really do. I smiled so big and I could see the happy in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me and we just stayed like that for at least 5 minutes.

"Ethan, I left Grayson so we should get going.." I said grabbing his hand.

"Grayson?" He saus confused.

"Long story short: we were looking for you and boo here you are." We walked out of chick-fil-a and went the Grays car. Grayson jumps and and gives him a handshake that guys do and hugs him. Gray looks at me and winks. I nod and he whispers to Ethan just loud enough I could hear him..

"Go get em tiger."

Ethan walked me to his car and opened the door for me. We got in the car and played the best songs on the radio. That moment was one of the happiest moments of my life. I will never forget it.

From this moment on we have had the best time ever... We have experienced so many new things in life together that I will literally never forget. He is my first and hopefully my last love. Now we are going to college, turns out we want to go to the same one. We both got accepted and are moving in together at an apartment down the street. As for Grayson he's had a few different girls around these last few years of high school, he is the biggest catch of the school. He seems so happy and Gray and I are still amazing friends. He is going to a film school in L.A. Ethan was super upset leaving him because they have never been apart. I think this will be good for him though... We are only one plane ride away.

This is the end of a big chapter in my life, college is a completely new story that will soon be told... stay tuned for our new life together.

Love you lots -Emily Hills