The Djinns Wife

TWO

Today I decided to do a little self care, which I desperately needed. I wanted a facial, a pedicure, manicure, and on top of that my hair is in serious need of a good touch up. I've neglected myself so much recently until my hair was starting to mat together and the luster it once had is long gone. Now replaced with dull dead neutral brown tones. I wouldn't have to worry about bringing Amir along since he's at my cousins for today, I'll be picking him up some time tomorrow. She wanted to have him stay the night, because of her schedule Rayne doesn't see us too often. Now that she has a few days off from her hectic social services job she wanted to spend some time with Amir.

Rayne never had any kids of her own, after she took me in she just worked and provided for me. I would always be grateful for her, if it wasn't for her I would have been in foster care and would have never met Cyrus. She was only nineteen when I came to live with her, after my parents and our grandparents passed away, the little family we had left was sparse. We were basically all alone. Can you imagine how hard it is for a nineteen year old to take and raise a seven year old child all alone with no help or experience?

I started to dig through my wardrobe in an attempt to find something to wear, I still have yet to go shopping for new clothes. I just don't see the point when the weight continues to drop off, in two years I have managed to go from one hundred eighty pounds to one hundred and twenty five. All of my happy weight had fled leaving my five foot seven frame looking almost like a skeleton. In total fifty five pounds just melted away from being away from him. Since me and Cyrus were mates, and fully mated. Our souls were intertwined, and had become one.

Our emotions, thoughts, feelings, physical pain, and sensations were all things that we shared. Now since we've been separated and that bond is being broken by force, it's slowly killing me. I'm sure it's doing the same to Cyrus. It makes us weak physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I was determined to not let this end me for our child's sake, I knew this was affecting us both no matter where he may be. By me being human the side effects of the separation aren't as severe, but for him. It takes his magic away, and drains his life force expeditiously. Making him as if he were nothing more than a mere human.

I shifted through the various outfits hanging up everything from beautiful sundresses, to my cute little daisy dukes that were now too big to fit over my shirking butt. I guess I would be cute and comfy today, pastel blue high waist flare leggings and a matching crop top was always the best option for errands. I quickly got myself dressed and headed out the door, I didn't want to take too long and have to wait for a spot to open up at my favorite spa. They did everything there facials, body massages, mani pedis, etc. everything besides my hair I could get done at one time.

Maybe I would go and treat myself to lunch after my hair appointment, I just felt the need to love on myself a little bit today. Although it didn't help me feel a whole lot better I knew it would at least make me look less dead on the surface. The deep dark circles under my eyes, the slightly sunken in cheeks, the lack of color to my brown skin had made me look ashy. I looked like someone off the walking dead and yet Micheal still would not leave me alone, I just couldn't understand what he finds so beautiful about this.

Unless the guy has some weird fetish he needs to have therapy about then I'm not sure what his definition of beauty is.

After a short 20 minute ride across town I finally pulled up to the spa. From what I could tell they weren't too busy today due to the empty parking lot, great! I hurriedly rushed inside the cool soporific building wanting to get my massage as soon as possible.

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  As I pulled up to the lucrative restaurant I couldn't help but feel a pang of hurt rise in my chest. The matte black exterior and large cursive neon sign on the towering brick building, only sent painful nostalgia through my body; as I fought to build up the courage to go inside. I starred at the place where me and Cyrus had our first date. Some fancy eatery where only posh CEO's take their botox filled lovers, while their wives are at home eating Chinese take out with the children. My blue leggings and freshly done hair definitely didn't match the aesthetic but I didn't really care, I just wanted a nice dinner after a long day and to feel a little closer to that man that I loved.