Unstable

Chapter 1

      I've been in love with the same person for a long time.  I would say she is the only person I have ever been with but that would be a lie. But...she is the only girl I have ever loved.  I was one of those types that loved one night stands, fucking with people's emotions, never meant to settle down, that is....until I met Lauren Jauregui.

     I am 23 years old a local police officer from Miami.  One big thing that needs to be said...I'm intersex, I'm a female with male parts but that's not a secret anymore.  I forgot to mention I am also a very well known model (crazy right?! a model and a police officer?!), anyways me and Laur were a famous power couple...That is until she decided to break my fucking heart.

1 Day before tour......

     She is kissing and licking her way down my very toned torso.  "Wait-" I grab her hands and pull her back up my body.  "What's wrong?" she asks shocked.  "I'm just...."

"what's wrong baby?"

I grab her chin and place a sweet kiss on her beautiful lips.  "ugh I'm sorry! T-Those rumors..they just..." She grabs my face and kisses me passionately.

"Look (y/n) babe, I told you it was all fake!" She said getting off of me and sitting beside me.

I forgot to mention there were rumors and even a picture taken of Lauren hugging all over even holding hands with Harry Styles, just my luck!

"Look, I'm just having a really hard time with this, ok? It looked pretty real to me" I say facing her.

"I love you (y/n)" she says putting her hand on my thigh.

"Just tell me if something happened" I stare into hers eyes intently.

"Will you get angry?"

"Maybe..."

She removes her hand and buries her face in her hands, when she removes them I see tears in her eyes, I immediately stand up and clench my fists.

"Wait! please just let me explain", she says as she grabs my forearm and pulls me back onto the couch.

"So you are going to fuck someone else and then try to have sex with me?!", she shakes her head with more tears streaming down her face.

Ok hold on...now would be a perfect time to intervene and explain how we met and got into this so called relationship.  Not really an exciting story... we met, had an extreme sexual attraction and we became fuck buddies, that is...until Lauren got pregnant with my child.  Honestly I was never into love or relationships but that all changed when she got pregnant.  Our entire relationship changed.  She fell in love with me long before I even started to feel a fraction of that, because I am so closed off with my feelings...anyways she got pregnant, we started dating forreal and became a world famous power couple (aka the hottest couple everrrr).  But, recently our relationship has started going downhill after we found out that she lost the baby.  I  guess that is karma since our relationship had a treacherous start, but I'll get into that later.

Back to the present....

Lauren is still crying profusely and I'm two seconds away from slappin' a hoe.

"Well", I stare at her angrily waiting for a response.

"(Y/N) I'm so sorry!", she says crying even harder. That is enough for me...I know what she did.

"That's all I need to hear", I say holding up my hands and standing up, as I start walking to the door I hear her say " (y/n) please don't leave me, I love you".
I turn around and look at her with tears streaming down my face " I can't do this anymore Lauren, I let you in then you break my fucking heart!" I say yelling. "I'll come get my stuff out tomorrow, the place is yours" I say calmer then I'm feeling while turning to leave.

The moment I left I knew...I just freaking knew it was over for me, I will never be able to open my heart for another person again. I'm returning to how I used to be, a womanizing bitch, I hope she happy with returning to Harry Styles. Did I say returning?! Yes I did....

(A/N)
Hello, sorry if this sucks..anyways if anyone likes it and reads it I will update it, if not..then I will continue to write it for myself.