The Second Time Around

Chapter 1 - A Glimps Of The Past

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knowing me

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hi readers(kung meron man) im Xyrish Xyandrixia Reyes (Cyandria)

ganda ng pangalan ko noh? hahahahaha thanks to my beloved mother hindi nahahalata sa pangalan ang personality ko...

oo hindi kasing ganda ng pangalan q ang personality q, well sort of ?? hehehe labo noh 

Theres this empresion kasi na pag nabasa mo ang pangalan ko parang ang hin-hin, nice, sweet, ang bait, Masayahin, Dalagang pilipina, fasionista, ang talino, ang ganda, at kung ano-anung girly stuffs..

Pero

Sorry to break it to you 

i'm the exact opposite. I'm clumsy, i love sports, sometimes mean, short tempered totally hindi mabait, pessimist at higit sa lahat stupid. well maliban jan totoo na lahat ng kasulat sa itaas.

[kapal noh hahahahahahahhaha walang kokontra story ko toh]

I'm an incomming college freshmen this year. Super excited na nga ako eh. 

not because i hate my school kaya excited na kong iwan yun, its just that everything in that school reminds me of him.

pero in a way, i desperately want this year to end..

why??

because im hoping that as I leave this school I can also leave the memories and pain behind..

[ang gulo ko!  oo tangap ko po yan kaya go lng]

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-CHAPTER 1-

A glimps of the past

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I'm in a beautiful garden sitting at a bench while watching the beautiful scenery in font of me..

a paradise here on earth where the crimson sky is slowly devouring the falling sun everything felt so tranquil, so relaxing, as if nothing was wrong. then after some hours not even its majestic rays were seen and the paradise ive been was slowly being copped by the darkness.

[pakipasa ng tissue tumutulo na]

im alone in that blinding darkness. i felt sadness as if i was alone in this prepoustrous world. i felt so hopeless. i felt so dumb.

Then i stood up which was a sign of my surender. but as i turn my gaze to my back i saw him. hes wacthing me with a plain blank stare on his eyes.

he walked straight towards me then said the words i never wanted to hear.

"Xie Im sorry"

"Ewan ko sayo pinaghintay mo ko dito. kala ko nga d k na dadating pero ayos lang kasi andito k n. may surpise ako sayo dali!."

"No I mean I'm sory" 

"Basta di tayo magbabati pag di ka sumama sakin"

"Xie look, your great. Your really not that sweet,neither  caring and talented and loving  and everything i ever wanted my girlfriend to be but......"

"Oo na, alam ko na yan nasabi mo na yan eh... 

i promise that i will be better than you cause im going to make you feel all the  things you've done to me... 

tama na matt napasagot mo na ko kaya di mo na ko kailangang daanin dyan sa mga linya mo... hehehe"

"nasabi ko na nga yun pero iba naman to.. mag promise ka di mo kakalimutan..."

"Matt anu ka ba hindi ko naman talaga makakalimutan ang mga oras na kasama kita"

"Xie please be happy for me. I'm........... I'm ....,,.."

"I'm??????"

"I'm............"

"Anu nga????!!! dali n baka anung oras na tayo makauwi nyan eh"

"I'm breaking up with you"

"huy anung sinasabi moh??"

"I'm sorry pero sana maintindihan mo ko."

"huh!? Matt!? Anu bang problema!!?? ayoko!!! sorry kung nasigawan kita hindi naman ako galit eh tampo lng yun bati na tayo. please naman wag mo kong iwan dahil lang dun.!? please"

" Xie minahal kita sa loob ng dalawang taon naging sobrang saya ako sayo."

"kung ganun bait mo ko iiwan??! kasi nagsawa ka na sakin??? ganun ba yun ha???"

"I have my reasons. i'ts just your to much for me. Believe me i loved you and youve been a part of me for two wondrous years. alam mong mahal na mahal kita pero kailangan na talaga natin tong gawin." 

"did you find someone better than i ever did???"

"no..... i,,,, i,,, can never find anyone better than you"

"so you fell out of love is that it???"

"no! you dont understand.. i love you and nothings gonna change that"

"then make me understand!!!!"

"......"

"Im begging you please just make me"

"......."

i cried there in front of him waiting for him to comfort me and take back every word he said. 

but he never did

sound of silence

"please sana supportahan mo nalang ang desisyon ko. promise me na hindi mo na ko hahabulin. promise me na kakayanin mong mabuhay ng wala ako."

after a long moment of silence

i nodded

as a sign of approval

Then he kissed me softly

"Thank you"

"Goodbye"

matapos nun wla n kong magawa kundi umiyak ng umiyak..