Secrets

Chapter 4: fire and lullabies

I didn't go down to dinner when Melody called me or when Andrew knocked on the door. I was currently curled up in a ball on my bed with the sheets over my head. There was someone in the room with me...I could feel it. I felt like a child hiding from the boogie man... hoping someone would just come save me (maybe they would if the fucking door wasn't locked.) whoever it was seemed to be waiting for something a sign I was coming out maybe? I'm scared I can admit that. Fear is a logical feeling when you've had the life I've had. Laughter floated up from downstairs (at least their okay...for now) I can't stay like this forever I know I'd have to leave the safety of my blankets sooner or later. (Okay women, get yourself together! On three 1...2...3!) i threw the cover over my head and jumped off the bed my socked feet hitting the cold hard wood floor and spun around looking in every corner of the room and found... nothing, nada no person there lurking in any dark corners or hiding in the closet or the bathroom or behind the curtains. THERE.WAS. No ONE HERE!! I don't know why that pissed me off so much I should be happy (Maybe because I psyched myself up over nothing?) and now I was talking to myself which confirmed I was going crazy. I closed my eyes and counted to ten. I wasn't about to work myself up over absolutely NOTHING. What I should care about is the fact that I had my first day of school tomorrow morning...bright and early with the normals, no this isn't my first time at a new school but it's always... difficult for me I had to remember my stories and keep my lies straight and the only way to do that was not get involved with people as little as possible. I laid back down and counted the dots behind my eyelids until sleep swallowed me.
(The dream always started out the same there was this woman signing something that sounded like a lullaby to a baby, the sweet sound of her voice wrapped around me like silk, relaxing my mind until it was numb and blissful. I couldn't figure out what she was singing or where in the room it was coming from but it was beautiful, but I never got to hear the ending. The room filled with smoke and flames, glass breaking and flying from the room .I can't see! Glass sliced at my face and arms as I ran threw the house. "Help me! Help me!" I froze was there someone else here? There was never anyone here with me. I turned trying to find the screaming women but I couldn't see the flames where starting to lick at my skin "where are you!" I screamed " I can't see you!" "Help me!!" The house creaked and groaned "I'm coming!" God help me there wasn't supposed to be someone else here! I ran down a hallway the smoke splitting like it wanted me to pass to see the door at the end. I began to cough, the panic was rising as the voice got louder " please!! " I ran as fast as I could I was almost there! " Help me!!" I reached the door and grabbed the knob it burned as I twisted it open, the smoke lifted up and    swirled around me "help!" " I'm here! I'm coming" " please! Help me!" I followed the voice to the corner of the room where a figure laid on the floor, there was something wrong here... it's body was consumed in flames, I looked around the room and saw a cover, the body was silent now it didn't even move. Oh fuck!. I tossed the blanket over trying to smother the fire, " oh god, please please be alive." I kneeled down close it was like time stopped as I leaned over it " HELP MEEE" the figure shot up and grabbed my arm I didn't have time to move it wrapped it's burning flesh around my wrist the pain shot up my arm and all I could do was scream and scream "why won't you help me! " it yelled back.)
"Cassie! Cassie! It's okay baby it's ok " the voice was gentle and soothing. I coughed and cried until I was exhausted and my breathing slowly calmed down and became regular I listened to what I could now tell was Melody's soothing voice telling me how it would be okay and that she was there. She continued to rock me while I cried and probably spit and snotted all over her nice cotton night gown and she continued to rock me until I calmed and went back to sleep. The last thing I heard was Melody humming something that sounded like the lullaby in my dream.