A Journal Of Dread

Day #365

It has been 2 years since it all starded. I still live in the same closed comunity and we had not had any disturvances in 3 months, our last disturbance that involved the task force costed us two of our best members and 7 civilians including my brother and mom, my brother was 9 im only 17. I had taken the job of taking care of my family my father could not be here at the time of the beggining he was out on a work trip and i felt i was responsible for the safety of family. I was doing the best i could, im the one who found the closed comunity in the first place, even doe we are protected from the oustside we still have the task force to venture into the outside of our walls and get the suplies for our families, im now one of the head members of the task force,witch is formed up of kids in between 22 being the oldest and 14 being our youngest member we are a total of 8. The closed comunity housed 16 diferent families now thers only 9, we have either lost families in disturbances or they decided to venture out and we never heard from them again. Today is the one year anniversarie of being in the closed comunity i would like to celebrate with my family so im visiting their graves, now i live alone and i basicly work for the comunity, i still live in the house designaded to my family since we got here, i only sleep there and its used by pasing groups that stumble into the comunity only one of those groups has decided to stay thats the group that I brought to the comunity.
Our group was small it was my mom, my brother and another family we found in our way that still lives here in the comunity.
Today the patrol we have in the comunity is sopose to fix our border, the wall that guards us from the outside so the task force is going out in a cuple of hours at the moment its mid-day and we are soposed to come back bafore dark for the patrol to fix the wall, im also part of the patrol so its a non resting day for me today witch i prefer from staying in the comunity dreading from my life choices.