What will you say if I asked , are you are okay?
Don't tell me that you feel okay, because you are trying to hide what that voice says, anyone could feel that way not being able to speak, because of the pain that is wrapping around your veins and seeing things that you cannot explain. However if you shout how you feel people might look at you without appeal.
There are people to help they say but how am I supposed to go when all I can hear is someone else telling me NO!!. its not a feeling, not a gut feeling I suppose but more of a voice, how can I know?. well let me explain without you saying that I am crazy, that voice that you say is imaginary shouts at me every night and day, I don't think It can care less about who's the prey. There are many ,some are nice but on the contrary, there is one that gurgles his words sitting in the shadows making me scared at night and I feel like I am drowning repeatedly over & over again because the thoughts and worries of me looking at myself in an already broken mirror of being too fat, are circulating around me like a shark cunningly waiting for the fish to start struggling.
until.. it cannot swim any longer ,then it shackles my ankle to the bottom... to the bottom of a room where all of my possessions I had carefully mapped out to stay had been misplaced, however its more than just being tidy but a constant melody of actions daily, of course this drives me crazy but you will wish this upon yourself? but you will not want anything else. But this is the problem, you cannot pick and choose with mental health once its there it takes more than physical strength to fight it by yourself, do you still think we are people of freedom? or that we are personal slaves to our own brains?
