unconditional love |book 1|

school?!?

Ik u wanna luv but i juss wanna fuck and girl u kno the deal i gotta keep it real ik u wanna see ik u wanna be in my B.E.D grinding slowly

My alarm clock played i turned it off then i got up and i got in the shower and got up and did my hair and makeup then i got dressed

I grabbed my phone and put my apple watch around my wrist the i walked downstairs and tay and nolen were waiting on me "wow its about time" nolen said i rolled my eyes i looked at my besfrhan girl u look cute

"Girl u do too" "i see u bro witcho trues" "ik yo bro gotta stay fresh" he said dusting off his timbs

I heard a knock at the door "ya) kids have fun at school" i nodded he dont go to school he got a job

i kissed his jaw and he opened and left the door there stood lucas and dillyn tay put on her boots and came to the door then he left out we ran upstairs and grabbed our space chariots and headphones we went back downstairs and "damnnn" lucas and dillyn said at the same time we looked at eachother and she closed the door "what u do that fo foo" i said "i think i gotta change my damn panties" she said i laughed she ran upstairs i grabbed her headphones and space chariot and mines to then i went out there "where is tay" dilyn questioned my eyes popped outa my head ian kno what to say "had to take care of a personal problem" lucas smirked "damn bro already makin her wet" he said in this deep sexy ass voice i never heard i felt it in my fuckin pants damn lucas i just stood there they looked at me "whats wrong luh momma" lucas asked i put our stuff down and backed up "girl whats up witcho" dillyn said i guess he was thinking and he caught on then he whispered something in lucas ear lucas smirked he looked at me "can i get a hug" "uh wait i gotta go get somethin" i lied and went in the house and tay was runnin down "girl wyd in here he git to u to" i nodded i went upstairs and changed my underwear then i put on some pants that looked like the other ones cause i made a mistake and got two i put them on and went outside "ok u can have a hug now" "nope ion want one now y i couldnt have one b 4 u went in the house" "cuz i had to pee real bad" he nodded then i seen somebody i never thought i would see again that one person who i thought loved me well he acted like he did i gave him my virginity bit he repaid me by fuckin putting his hands on me like why me out of all people we were 15 i got behind lucas so he wouldnt see me tay looked at me with worry in her eyes "wassup vontae" "wassup lucas wassup troy hey----" "tay" she replied "wassup tay" he said flashing one of his smiles he had braces ''who that behind u lucas" vontae said damnnn why did my hair have to be down and it was windy lucas looked back and moved from infront of me his smile faded and his face softened "hey nae" "wassup" i said dryly "damn u act like u dont wanna speak" i looked at him like really nigga face "boy u got me fucked up i dont wanna fuckin talk to u you fuckin used me javontae u think since it was last year im over it and im just supposed to be like 'oh wassup vontae i miss being abused and used by u why dont u come over i dont mind having sex now im 16 even tho u fuckin raped me im ok now' i was traumatized for 2 months and didnt eat o vontae im sorry if i didnt talk to u well maybe it was because YOU RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE U STUPID BITCH I FUCKIN HATE U DEVONTAE ERIN ZAIR" i yelled then i socked him in his jaw "IM SORRY IT WASNT MY FAULT THAT I WAS ALL FUCKED UP U DIDNT KNO I HAD FUCKING ANGER ISSUES U DIDNT KNO I WAS KINDA SLOW DID U BUT EVERYBODY TOLD U BUT DID U LISTEN NO U STILL PUSHED YO SELF ON ME YEA DO U REMEBER THAT I DIDNT WANNA GO WITH U CAUSE U HAD A FUCKING ATTITUDE PROBLEM I KNEW I Would HAVE BEAT YO ASS THAT WAS YO FAULT LITTLE GIRL AND I DIDNT RAPE U U FUCKIN WANTED IT WE WERE BOTH HIGH U ACT LIKE FUCKED U WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION GURL GTFO OUTA HERE AND IF U FUCKIN TOUCH ME AGAIN IM GONE BEAT YO ASS U STUPID ASS RAT" he said and walked away i started crying then i ran home i heard them calling my name but i didn't care i was bout to go down the same path i ran upstairs and grabbed my antidepressants and i left on all my clothes and i got in the tub i grabbed the pills and i was taking them i started to feel dizzy but not enough as soon as i was about to take another one but then lucas busted through the door "DAYJANAE WTF"  he said and he picked me up then i started kicking and screaming "lucas let me go" "babygirl chill" he said then he laid me down on my bed then he grabbed a towel all he took off his jacket all i remeber is someone taking off my clothes damn am i getting raped.......AGAIN