Diary?

Aftertaste.,

In all honesty after the phone call I went inside and was completely fine and now you are just an aftertaste. You are and always have a permanent place in my heart because you are special to me even after I'm over you. Our time has come to an end in my mind and I'm happy. The biggest stressor wasn't you finding out how I felt, it was your departure. The fear of losing someone special. And I'm glad I didn't lose you. Now I know that I don't need love to feel complete. I have self love and that's all that matters. I went into that phone call confident with myself and accepting of both outcomes. I felt better as those words slipped out of my mouth. Even tho I fell for you you when I knew you in fact didn't like me back was horrible since I couldn't help my feelings. And now these sleepless nights are more losing sleep of planning for my future and not over you.
Oh sleepless nights how I thought you won. Oh sleepless nights I have surrendered so early yet I wasn't ready. Oh sleepless, oh how I won. Oh sleepless nights you can't claim me now. Oh sleepless night I'm not your bitch, you are mine.
Now you are finally done in this diary? You may reappear from time to time but it would be more of a progress check up but I'm so ready for what the future holds for us as friends. Thanks for being the first guy I've felt like this for other than josh dun. Anyways. Goodnight diary.