I look down at the ground being cast up at me. It's going so fast...my eyes get foggy as warm tears escape from my monsteras red eyes. Sobs escape from my mouth but it fades into the background as the whistling of the swift air. As my slender frame crashes into the ground I wake up from my bed as a sob escapes from my mouth. My hand rushes up to my mouth as to not to wake my neighbors. I sit up and stand shakily and I slowly shuffle to the kitchen. I open the cabinet and own my candy box. I grab a handful of candy and shove it into my mouth. As the sugar melts on my mouth my brain calms down. I sigh and place the box carefully back in the cabinet. I walk slowly to my couch and slump down on it. "I need to distract myself"
I turn on some anime and get sucked into the show. The character calls out my name and my blood turns to ice. I forgot that one character and I shared a name as my mind crept back to the days of 7th grade. Myst is a name for a hip hop dancer who has self confidence to spare.... or even a popular punk girl. Not a girl with a petite frame and mousy brown hair. I get snapped out of my thoughts by my stomach yelling t me for eating. I rush into the bath room (OK THIS IS GOING TO BE GROSS) and I find my stick... I poke the back of my mouth and quickly rech into the toilet. "I'm ok...this is normal..." I try to rationalize to myself. I look into the mirror and see all the cuts on my arms but all I could think of is you.
