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I've never slept next to my shoes before..

Or ever felt ashamed for never seeing the value in having my own bed

I've never just laid there and listened to a parade of foreign snores

As tears creep along the sides of my face and snot builds up in my nose making it hard to breathe

I've never missed my pillows so much

Or the freedoms of having a refrigerator

Or unlimited trips to the bathroom

I've never had a house curfew before

Never wished for tissue so bad

Or have it occur to me that I'm breaking a rule by having food in my bed

I think I'm partial to misery

It seems to follow me around lately paired with frustration and loneliness

All I keep doing is wishing I could fast forward

Past this pulling sensation I feel in my heart

Past this sadness pooled in my mind

Past this disappointment with everything

But at the same time I'm grateful.

This could've been a night spent in my car or on a bench somewhere

I'm lucky

Besides the noise and rules i'm comfortable

That's much more than probably alot of people could say...