The Best Girl I Never Had (OneShot)

The Best Girl I Never Had

I was a transfer student back then. I'm a kind of guy that is introverted, boring, and snub. I don't like attention, so I prefer to stay out of the things that I think will bring trouble.

I was a 4th year high school transfer student when I first met her. She was sitting at the back in the last row in the classroom. Since the seat next to her was the only vacant seat I headed straight to it after introducing myself to everyone in front.

I tried my best to sit on the chair without making any noises, and seemed like everyone didn't care so it was actually on my advantage.

I started listening to the professor at the front when I caught her staring at me. I may have been just assuming, "Or just maybe" I was wrong and you just gave a quick glance at me right when I caught you.

I decided not to mind you, but what surprised me the most was when you gave me a smile and said, “Hi, I'm Jane Sandoval" and you lent your hand. That moment I knew you were being friendly with me so I shook my hand with yours and said, "nice to meet you" casually. I didn't say my name because I knew I had said it already earlier when I introduced myself as a transfer student. Also I didn't want a long chat.

You were kind to approach me first, but then I'm just a boring guy who didn't know how to make a conversation so you went back to what you were doing, and I noticed you were taking notes of what the teacher was discussing.

Such a good student, I secretly smiled at the thought of that. Days, weeks, and a few months had passed. I didn't expect our relationship to improve from normal classmates to friends. Yes, for the first time of my life I got to get close to a girl, and who would have imagined I made friend with a girl??

Who am I to be choosy? You are so kind, beautiful, dedicated, religious, and all, I think you're perfect in your own ways. That's why everyone admires you, guys were dying to court you, but you were so reserved and stayed focused on your goals.

In a short period of time I learned a lot from you, you helped me with my school stuff, you became my study buddy, you helped me get out of my comfort zone and there are lots of "first time emotions and things" that are very amazing that I experienced with you.

I couldn't thank you enough. You're every man's dream, you even introduced me to your family.

That made me admire you even more because you gave me the chance to know you more and more and you never fail to impress me each day.

Time passed, I became aware that I was falling for you. Many things happened and I was afraid to confess my feelings.

I was afraid to be rejected and that you might treat me differently, or worst, you might have gotten scared of me and our relationship might have changed oppositely. So I kept it to myself.

I would rather love you secretly than taking the risk that could end up hurting each other.

I loved you so much that it was hurting me. I would get jealous even in the simple things, and I know I was hurting you as well. I'm being childish, dominant, and selfish. I didn't know I am this greedy.

Senior Promenade came. You were so gorgeous, almost every guy was attracted to you. That was the greatest night of my life because I was your escort. I felt like you were mine at those moment.

You got the awards, and became the princess of the night. You're indeed a princess to me. I didn't want to end that wonderful night but everything has to come to an end.

I escorted you home and right at the moment when you needed to go inside I didn't know what came over me. I felt like I had enough courage to take a risk and.....I......confessed my feelings. I felt like a thorn was just pulled out from my chest; I felt relieve yet scared. You smiled at me, you didn't show me any dismay or negative emotions.