I have never had this feeling before. It makes me feel happy and it feels like i have a million butterflies in my stomach. So many they could all just carry me away. Me Madi Burghoff falling for a guy. When I was little I always wanted to live one of those fairy tale lives were the prince would come sweep me off my feet. Today I realized it’s all just a lie. This boy i’ve like for a long time. Brady Borg the cutest boy in school and I know he will never notice me. And that feeling just makes me very conscientious about what I do in front of him. But, I know there would never be an us. Considering there was was a him and a significant other named Demi George. The most popular girl and school and need I say the prettiest. I would do anything to get him to notice me. And I knew after summer was over Freshman year would be exactly as it says “Fresh” I would create a new me still staying in touch with the real me. We have known eachother since preschool we used to be best friends then came puberty he got hot I got braces he gained height I gained a new pair of glasses.I didn’t think it could get any worse and it didn’t it got better. In a week I get my braces off and I’m getting contacts. It would be the year everyone saw me as a different person a better person of course. I would prove to everyone behind the braces and the glasses a whole different person was there and this person wanted Brady Johnston. And she intended to get him. I had my best friend Jordan Kayer I don’t understand why people say guys and girls can’t be best friends without dating in the end I say screw that me and Jordan have been friends since we were babies and he unlike Brady didn’t leave me when I turned ratchet. But, ya know he is better as a friend he has always been there to me and I never would think of us dating that is weird and I don’t think he does either. Today is the day I start my transformation today I start with my hair I am going to get it trimmed. I have pretty long hair it’s to my butt and I would normally wear it up but, this year I want something more girly i’m going to wear it wavy curled and a deep left part and tease it a bit and dress up more. I couldn’t wait for Freshman year i’m planning on eating healthy and losing weight also trying to clear up my terrible acne that has pestered me for years. Me and my friend Maggie we went to get our nails done we talked about boys the whole time of course. We talked about how we wanted our first times to be like and with who. And I was like yea I want it to be with Brady and I want it to be super romantic. And in detail I told her and she told me it would never happen. I knew it would though and I knew it would be perfect like I always imagined. Then we just did a little shopping and met up with Jordan and we just hung out and did teenager stuff. I normally get a lot of stuff when I go shopping with my parents being divorced I tend to get a lot of allowance I know it’s a selfish thing to think of but, it’s true and I don’t think they mind anyway i’m their only daughter they need to put their time and money into me. So many people are confused on what to do with their lives and I know what i’m going to do marry Brady have children be rich and live happily ever after and never get divorced and we will give our children everything and they will be the most popular people in school pretty much give them the life I could never have.The next day when I went to go work out I felt like nothing was happening with my weight in fact i felt like i gained a lot of weight so I cut down the food and increased my exercise I stayed at the gym the whole day did yoga, exercised, and swam. I went home getting ready to make dinner when I felt like nothing was helping so I figured skipping dinner would be fine I mean it was just one meal. I woke up the next morning and I still didn’t feel hungry so I skipped breakfast and went for a run to see if I was hungry so I ran 2.5 miles and I still didn’t feel hungry I felt no different I thought it was no big deal so I carried on as usual. I invited Jordan and Maggie over for a slumber party but, not exactly we watched horror movies and ate popcorn I ate grapes.It’s coming around to the first day of school and I haven’t noticed anything no difference at all. But, I increased my exercise even more and I have been eating really healthy. But, all I could seem to think about is how I wasn’t perfect enough for him. I fell into a nap if that makes any sense but, I had the best nap dream ever. So, it started off I was just standing there at a dance all by myself and a slow song came on and Brady came up to me and asked me to dance of course I said yes so we danced and I got really nervous and I ran away and threw up. I always do that when I get nervous and I hate it. Anyway it was the last song so I just left after and didn’t get a chance to say goodbye or sorry. But, he texted me later that night and asked if I was ok I was so embarrassed but, I told him the whole story and he said he wanted to throw up also but, he didn’t want to stop dancing with me. Then I woke up and found he left me a message on facebook to help him with Jelly splash. But, it was close enough and I would take what I could get. I wish my life could be the way I wanted but I guess that won’t ever happen. Now back to my reality life here.It was time to prepare myself for the years of Freshman year ahead. I was ready to show him who I can be that i’m no longer a nerdy nancy. I was ready to show him what he was missing out on. It was now almost a week and a half until school started and I was so excited I bet he became a whole new person even hotter than he was before. You know if it was even possible. The last time I saw him he was only 5 inches taller than me tall enough my head fit right between his shoulder and chin. You know just eyeing was enough to know it never really happened. He has really pretty blonde hair like hockey hair and oh my goodness his eyes are the prettiest blue. His personality is the best I love the way he laughs and says my name that is what could give me massive butterflies. I could never explain to anyone how much I liked him I could try but words would never be good enough. It was time the final touches to the new and improved me. I think it’s time for a little break let’s go to the beach.Tomorrow is the first day of school and i’m so nervous but, so excited he rode my bus in the morning and after school and I was so excited to see him. But, it was time to get to bed and get my beauty sleep woot woot.Today is the day I have really bad butterflies this is way more than I could handle. As the bus pulled up I thought I was going to keel over. But, I got on and anxiously waited until we pulled up to Brady’s house. He got on and it was possible he was even cuter than last year. He sat on the seat next to me but across if that makes any sense. My face turned beat red and I felt I got really warm. And he saw me he actually did he smiled and me and I nearly fainted and I got so excited I nearly fainted. I had no idea what expression I gave back to him I hope I didn’t look to stupid. We pulled up to school and we got our locker information and class schedules. It turns out our lockers are right next to each other I got so happy. He asked to see my schedule and we have almost the same schedules but, I had German and he had Spanish. I was so ecstatic. Words couldn’t even explain how happy I was. I tried to contain myself and said oh cool. I hope I didn’t sound too desperate. We got to our first class and we sat right next to each other and he asked if I purposely did this. I laughed and said no too hope I didn’t make it seem as I did purposely do that. Later on in the day our english teacher assinged us as partners for a project of course it's to get to know each other more. I was happy but, I am not good at reading him. He asked if I wanted to come over later to finish the project I said yes and I'm afraid I sounded to eager.I went to his house after school and I had a really good feeling. We went up to his room and his parents weren't home. He got a text and said ughh my ex annoying girl friend won't leave me along I smiled because I was really happy. We were video taping and he said something really funny and of course I laugh and I snort. I stopped and my face turned beat red. He moved closer and said it's cute when you snort and I became even more red. He leaned over out his arm around me and pulled me closer and kissed me. I kissed back and I couldn't stop smiling. And he kissed me again and again. Things got carried away a little and i'm not going into detail. But, the next day he gave me a hug and kiss by my locker and I guess it was offical. I was so happy my dream since kindergarten came true. I walked around with a smile on my face he asked if I wanted to go over to his house again I said yes he said his parents were gone. I was so happy it's all I could think about the rest of the day. After school we took the bus home and sat by eachother on the bus ride home we sat by each other and talked and played games and everyone on the bus started joking around with us and chanting kiss kiss kiss and he leaned over and grabbed my face and gave me a kiss. The whole bus was in a silent moment then a bunch of people go ohhhhhhhh. And I turned red and coudn't stop smiling. When we got to his house the same thing happened as yesterday but, it was hard to say goodbye so I spent the night. A voice in my head got me scared like what if I would accidentally get prego. But, I didn't listen I knew we were safe. We loved each other a lot more than anyone could imagine. People said your so young you have no idea but in my mind I knew the feeling I had was right. I mean you never know what to do when all you can think of is him. We all know how the fairytales end and I knew that is how I wanted my life to end. Do you ever read the first couple pages of the book then the last couple to see how the story ends I wish I could to that because I love him a lot and wanted to know if we were gonna end up together. But, I knew I was going to have to wait this one out and see what happens. I was getting kind of worried I was late I didn't know what to do I went over to his house crying. I asked him if he used protection he said no he didn't want to mess anything up. I cried harder and harder. he said don't worry babe I will always be here for you baby or no baby. We went to the drugstore after school the next day. I took the test. Those five minutes were the worst five minutes of my life. As soon as the + sign came up I cried and wrapped my arms around him. He told me to shhhhhh and never let go. We took one the next day to be sure there was a +. We went first to tell my parents. They said they couldn't take another baby and told me if i wanted to keep this baby I had to get out of the house. I was no way thinking of getting an abortion so I cried as I walked up the stairs to pack my things. I left with very little but, was sure to grab all my valuable things. We went and told his parents. They cried at first but, wrapped there arms around me and welcomed me into their home. I cried again I had no idea what I was going to do. Luckily it was a friday. So saturday morning bright and early we left to the doctor to see how far along. I was 8 weeks and days. I cried when I sae the little egg thing and he reached over and grabbed my hand and said I love you. I knew if I wanted to raise this baby right I needed a job to pay for everything. It wasn't the best job but, it payed well and the surroundings weren't going to harm my baby. I was the new cashier at Fully Grown Whole Foods. Brady got a job as well at a mechanics place cleanign parts. We knew we would pull it off but, barely. You could see the baby bump I was most nervous for school I had told no one not even Jordan. I was afraid for everyone to find out I didn't want them to think I was a slut.Every time I thought of it. I decided to leave school just for the time. I would do online schholing it would be a lot easir and fix my schedule. Brady continued regular school so no one would get weird ideas. Every time I looked in the mirror the bump got bigger an bigger each day. I was at work one day and my mom walked up to the register I was at and acted like she had no idea who I was. Later that night I cried myself to sleep I couldn't believe she practically disowned me but, what should I care I knew she never loved me anyway. My baby was a boy and due december 1st. I was so excited we thought of names and we decided on Alec. I was scared and excited I knew it was going to be a lot of work but, I would give htis baby a better life than the one my mother gave me. Later that day e picked out the baby nessecities. We moved into Brady's parents basement and totally recreated it. We sound proofed the walls for the sake of his parents. I love the snow and I'm so happy my baby will be born in the winter. It was almost december I was getting anxious and sick. I was currently not working but I would start again as soon as possible. On December 1st 2014 at 5:14 my baby boy Alec Borg was born. He had the gorgeous blue eyes that his mommy and daddy shared. I looked at him and cried and Brady is to we looked at him in awe. Brady's parents came walking in and cried also and the baby. I handed him over and gave him the biggest hug and kissed him and whispered I love you don't ever leave me he said don't worry it wasn't in his future plans. We finally got yo take our son home and let him see the world. When we got there I was so tired and Brady offered to watch him while I took a nap. My little boy was almost a month old and it was almost my birthday. Brady surprised me on my birthday and the day my baby boy was exactly a month old. Even though we were very young Brady proposed to me on Janurary 1st my birthday. His parents loved the idea especially since we had a kid this would insure he would be with me forever. I said yes balling. I knew we would really be together forever. We never really had a fight. We were similar enough that we basically agreed on quite a bit. I loves him more than anything and we would never be split up. Money was never an issue we kept spending light and saving heavy. He had a good paying job and a pomotion so did I. I am not managing the I Can't Believe Its Not Prada clothing store. We both make enough money to get passed and some. We had a pretty good wedding we kept it pretty traditional and very small. We both went to college but we switched off years. We had to get better jobs to afford to send Alec to school. And we did we got enough money to get an apartment and send Alec to preschool. Having this baby was more than i could have ever managed to handle but, I did and i'm glad I tried. i would never go back and change what happened. Cause we live a happy life and forever will.
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