Radom Thoughts

Disappearing Act

I can't believe how much as changed it so little time.
I used to be able to count on you to be there for me any time I needed you. Where are you now?
I have so much I have been going through.
So much I want to share with you,
But how can I count on you when you keep disappearing.
You keep saying it won't happen again.
That you really are there for me.
But then you're gone again.
And each time I let it go for weeks before finally asking.
This time I can't take it anymore.
So I went off.
I'm trying to contain the anger,
But it's getting harder.
You say that you're sorry.
I'm trying not to break down.
It's our first real fight.
Six years seem to mean nothing to either of us in the moment.
I feel I'm losing you.
I can't lose you.
Not now.
Not ever.
We made a promise to not let distance get in the way.
I can't be the only one holding the promise.
It's already down to three.
You say I'll never lose you.
I really hope that's true.