I'm NOT crazy! I'm just.......Normal

The problem

warning! some of this is triggering so don't read if you get triggered easily! -ps the song above is the one that Annabell is listening to when she has her headphones on! :P enjoy!!

chapter 14

I slipped on my headphones and walked ahead of Alex, but he kept walking next to me so i stopped trying to walk away and just let him walk next to me.

"Hay, Annabell, why do you always walk in the wood's?" Alex asked looking at the side of my face. I glanced at him from the corner of my eye and began to talk. "Because i don't like big groups of people, plus the woods are relly calm and quiet i like them," i said looking up at the sky with a small, warm smile. I could still feel him looking at me but i really couldn't care less.  "are you not scared?" he asked. I thought for a minute before i answered his question. "Why should i be?" i asked not really knowing what to say. "Well because it's the woods and bad things happen in the woods," he said finally looking away from me and focusing his gaze ahead of him. I sighed and looked down at the ground  'yeah bad things could happen to you, but ill always protect Annabell no matter what! so.back.off!' i almost giggled out loud at clicks words but stopped myself and kept my composure. "Well if anything did happen then I'd deal with it, when and if it happens," i said as we walked out of the woods and onto our street. "year but what if its a man or someone with a knife?" he asked sounding almost concerned. I really wanted to stay that i would kill who ever messes with me but i couldn't. 

"Well then ill deal with it. Stop worrying you don't have a reason to" i said as i walked closer to my house but i stopped walking when i noticed that Alex had stopped and was stood a couple feet away from me looking shocked and hurt. "What?" i asked and he just stood there with his mouth ope. "Of course i have a reason to worry about you im your friend!" he shouted, i just stood there with no emotion showing but inside i was angry. 'pfft! friend's notice when their friend walks into a room and if you were her friend you would -' shut up click! i shouted in my head at my true friend as he defended me. "What's my favorite color?" I asked he was going to speak but i stopped him "why didn't you notice me walk in class the other day?" again he was going to speak but i stopped him once again "You see I'm sick and tired of people betraying me and so called 'friends' turning out to just be people who use you until they find someone new. So unless your just going to say sorry and actually mean it then just don't speak, I've had enough." He looked really shocked and hurt by my words but i didn't care i turned up my music and walk away into my house.

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I ran straight to my room throwing my bag against the wall and running into my bathroom. I opened the drawer under the sink and searched around for my blades, i pulled up a piece of paper and found the small box with all my blades in it. I quickly pulled off my hoodie and opened the box taking out a blade. I put the blade near the skin on my left wrist and pushed down, i didn't move i just pushed the blade more and more down. Of course, i couldn't feel it, but the feeling of blood running down my arm was enough to calm me down even if it was only a little bit. 

"Click and you switch please i want to feel pain, please!?" i asked to click as i pulled the blade away from my wrist. 'But Annabell you know if i switch then you might never switch back, you can't keep doing this to yourself. It hurts me seeing you like this-' "Click! JUST SWITCH! p-p-please" i begged Click to switch the numbness to pain, which he can do, he can make me feel pain whenever i want him to and he can take it away where i want as well. i don't know how he does it, but he does. 

'As you wish.' he said and suddenly a strong burning sensation filled my left arm. I whimpered in pain and placed the blade back on my arm and wrote 'FREAK'  in the inner side of my arm as i winced in pain and watched the warm blood stream down my cold skin and onto the bathroom floor. I could hear the voices in my head yelling and screaming at me causing me to get a huge headache as i sat there with a small pool of blood at the side of me. even thou i could feel the pain now i still couldn't cry even when i was a baby i never cried not even once I've been told this many times by my brother.When i had calmed down i stood up and washed the blade and my left arm in the sink and put the box of blades back in their place. I washed the floor where the blood was and walked into my room picking up my hoodie and putting it in the wash basket.

I opened my closet to find some clean clothes to wear and picked out some grey leggings and a reddish/ pink hoodie and put them on, i didn't wear a top under the hoodie because it was a really comfy hoodie and wasn't a zip up one so i slipped it over my head and walked to my headphones that were on my bed. I was about to put them on when...."ANNABELL!" my mom scream from downstairs. I quickly told Click to switch back and he did. I ran downstairs and walked to where my mom was, she was stood in front of the back door with her arms crossed, tapping her foot hard on the ground. "Come look at this!" i was a little scared but followed her outside she stopped in front of the pond and then i noticed that i forgot to clean it out. 

"Whats this Annabell?!" she yelled i kept my composure and answered her question. "The pond" i replied and mentally slapped myself i shouldn't have said that so cockily. "YOU STUPID FU**ING BI*CH!" she yelled really loud and grabbed me by the back of the head taking a fist full of my hair and dragging me to the pond and pushing my head in the water and grabbing my legs swinging my whole body over and into the pond. The pond was really deep and i couldn't touch the bottom, she was still holding my head under the water and i could fell the plants in the pond wrapped around my frail body and pull me even more under the water. I started to kik my legs to get them off and try to pull my mom's hand off my head. "YOU'RE A MONSTER!" she screamed and pushed me even more under. By this point i was panicking and trying my best to remove her hand from my head, i finally managed to get her hand off of me and pushed myself up out of the water. I gasped for air as i looked at my mom who had a large grin spread across her face. i looked at her in worry just as she grabbed my head and pushed me under again. I kept trying to get up for air and begged her to stop when i had the chance. "MO- MOM! S-S-BBBB- STOP!" i screamed when my head came out of the water and then back in again. 

"YOU'RE NOT MY CHILD! I AM NOT YOU MOTHER YOU FREAK! YOU MONSTER!" she yelled i could barely hear her from under the water but i tried to stay strong and push her hands off of me. I never understood why she hated me so much but i guess she just neve wanted me in the first place. I could feel myself slipping away and everything going black. 

'HAY ANNABELL STAY WITH ME COME ON! SATY STRONG!!' Click yelled at the top of his lungs. But i couldn't answer him back as everything went black and i closed my eyes. i felt my mother's hand move from my head but i didn't have the strength to pull myself out of the pond so i just floated there and drifted to sleep.

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sorry cliff hanger but dont worry this isnt the end :P