"What is love?" They asked me.
Everytime they saw me crying, they asked me like that. I dont know what to say, I dont know how to answer it. Im just letting my tears from falling. I dont know why they asking me like that, even though they know I cant answer it. Before the day that he broke up with me, I felt like my world crashed, I felt like my body cant moved, like im paralysed. My tears flow and flow and flow.
It was so perfect. Like, many couple will wish that their relationships will be like us. Like, many people will not judge us because were fits together. Like, no one can separate us. But it seems like our relationship just ended like this. Then, I realised that all relationship were not perfect. Then, suddenly my tears flow.
We've been happy for how many years. Years? Yes, our relationship stays for six years. We're happy seeing each others eyes, dating every weekends, laughing each others corny jokes, teasing each other, hug each other and even kissing each other.
We've been planning for our future. Future wedding,future house,future childrens. Nandun na ko sa puntong tinitignan ko na nakaluhod siya sa harapan ko at may hawak hawak na box. It was so familiar. Alam ko na yung gagawin niya pero hindi parin mag sink in sa utak ko. I was shocked when he say " Shayne? Will you be the mother of my child?" Then, I cant stop my tears from flowing. I said " Yes, france. I do" he hug me tight that i cant breath anymore. That was my happiest day ever.
But world is not fair. How many months pass by. I cant feel his presents anymore. We were so busy. Like, twice a week were we can see each other. Minsan na lng siya bumisita sa dorm ko na dati ay palagi naman. Minsan na lng siya mag text at tumawag na dati segundo segundo, minu minuto, oras oras. At palagi siyang nagagalit kung hindi ko siya i text but now when I text him he will reply that his busy.
Na sa utak ko na baka nasasawa na siya sa relasyon namin. Na baka hindi niya gustong mag pakasal sakin. Na baka hindi niya gusto na ako ang maging nanay ng magiging anak namin. Na baka nagsisisi siya ngayon na sana hindi niya na ako naging fiance. My mind were very full of negative thoughts. Hindi ko mapigilan.
One day, I try to visit him in his office and bring some lunch and wine. Nasa harapan na ako ng pinto ng opisina niya na bigla na lng akong kinabahan. Hindi normal na kaba na para bang bago lng nangyari to sakin. I stepped closer to the door and hold the door knob and open it. And boom!.... I was shocked, nambibilog na yong mga mata ko sa gulat at nabitawan ko yung dala dala kung wine at paper bag na may laman na lunch para sana sa kanya. He looked at me and the girl infront of him gulat na gulat sila pero hindi parin nila ma iaalis ang labi nila sa isat isa. Hindi na mapigilan ng mga luha ko na lumabas. Ang gandang pang bungad kulang nalang popcorn. I was about to leave but france call my name. Hindi ko na marinig ng klaro eh, mukang nabingi ako. I run as fast as i can but hindi sapat dahil naabutan niya parin ako at nahawakan sa braso.
"Shayne..." He said
" why? France?" I reply, na tumutulo pa rin ang mga luha ko.
" im sorry... Shayne" napayukong sabi niya.
" bakit france? Bakit mo sakin ginawa to?" Nanginginig kong sabi.
