It's Yes, No or Maybe (a Glee fanfiction)

Chapter 1

A/N - This is pretty much uploaded exactly the same as the one on Fanfiction.net… Just saying… Remember to review!

Title: It's Yes, No or Maybe.

Rated: K

Summary: 5x01 spoilers. What if Kurt had said no? As he makes his decision, he finds that his friends will be there, no matter what. Surprise friendship near the end. Slight Klaine. Slight AU.

Warnings: Extremely minor character death (Pav)

Disclaimer: No, I do not own anything Glee. Fox and Ryan Murphy own it. I am just expressing my Klaine feels/opinions.

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"We met right here. I took this man's hand and ran down that hallway. for those of you who know me, i don't have a habit of taking peoples' hands Ive never met before but I think that my soul knew something that my body and my mind didn't know yet. It knew that our hands were meant to hold each other. Fearlessly. And forever. Which is why it's never really felt like I've been getting to know you. It always felt like I was remembering you, from something."

Kurt sucked in a deep breath, overwhelmed.

"As if in every lifetime, that you and I have ever lived, we've chosen to come back and find each other and fall in love,all over again. Over and over. For all eternity. And I feel so lucky, that I found you so soon in this lifetime, because all I want to do, all I've ever wanted to do, is spend my life loving you."

He took another breath, waiting. Sam handed Blaine a small bag. He knew what was in that bag. It was so obvious.

"So, Kurt Hummel," Blaine got down on one knee, "my amazing friend, my one true love…"

Kurt couldn't help but shake, this was the moment he had dreadfully anticipated all week.

"Will you marry me?"

He felt as though he was underwater, the pressure and expectations of that question weighing heavily on his chest. He couldn't believe that Blaine had just asked that. Well, he could actually. He had known for a couple days. But, wasn't this a bit fast, considering they had only gotten together as boyfriends earlier that week. Surely Blaine couldn't believe that he'd say 'yes'!

As he stared down at the man before him, all his apprehensions and misgivings before this week giving weight. Yes, he loved the boy in front of him so much, but that's what he was. A boy. A boy who was still in high school, still planning his future, still preparing himself for the 'real world'. A boy who wasn't ready for the commitment he was asking for. Kurt knew, even though they had gotten past the cheating, there was still a lot of rightly-earned hesitation in him.

Kurt bit his lip as his eyes flicked up and around the hall, everyone was awaiting his answer, some with obvious nervousness. He realised how long he had stalled. Blaine looked on the edge of nervousness and dread. Kurt could feel the tears pricking his eyes. He couldn't do this. Not to Blaine. Not to himself. The rational part of him knew how humiliated Blaine would feel if he said no in front of all their friends, the people who had shaped how they were today.

And so, he thought back to his dad's words earlier, "It's yes, no, or maybe", and couldn't help but want a 4th option.

Taking a deep breath, he locked eyes with Blaine, could read the devastation already building, and said, "Can I think about it?"

The devastation in Blaine's eyes almost reached breaking point, but Kurt needed to get away from everything, everyone, the stares burning through him. He moved the tiniest bit closer to Blaine, taking in his tense posture, the white knuckles clenching the ring box, and shook his head. Imperceptibly. Visible only to Blaine. No-one else. He saw the glassiness in his eyes, the shock, confirmation of his obvious fears, and finally the acceptance. That he wasn't going to say yes. He couldn't. Not then, when their relationship was weak and tentative at best.