heathens ~ euqilc

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My fist wrapping over the steering wheel, if it was a person I would be killing it. 89, 90, 91, 92, it keeps going up, and theres no way its going down any time soon. I can feel the sweat dripping down the side of my face, it has a bit of a tang to it. There is unexplored things in the fields that we are whizzing past, there could be a cure for cancer there, and the next superstar there. There is plenty of unknown sources that haven't been explored yet. 95, 96, 97, 98, 99, 100. 100. 100, a number that knocks at my head, we are truly doing this, I'm not dreaming or just thinking, we are really speeding down the highway going god knows has fast now to get away from the misunderstanders that are trying to take us. Trying to intimidate us by blaring their sirens which catches everyone's attention. Torn, no, detached, yes detached is a better word for how I'm feeling right now , at any moment if I loose focus we can spin out of control. Josh is just silently sitting next to me, he is scared, I can tell by his breathing, his heart beat, badum badum badum. Oddly satisfying. Sweet. A bit terrifying. But i hate to see him scared, I wanna reassure him everything will be okay but i might be lying to him, and we never lie to each other. Ever. This road seems to go on forever. But in reality we have only driven probably 10 miles, if even.
"Tyler look" Josh says, breaking my thoughts.
I look up to see a dead end sign passing us. Why the hell does a highway just end. Right there. I start to get panicky.
"What should i do."
"I dont know, but we cant keep going straight. Maybe we should just turn ourselfs i-"
"NO" i yell which i can tell scared josh and hurt him a bit too. "Im sorry, i didnt mean to yell, but do u realise the full extend of what we did back there, plus we are running from... Them. That's more than life in prison, that might be the death penalty. Im not gonna loose you, your everything to me" i say.
He just kinda sits there blank for a second. As soon as he goes to say something i swerve off the road.
"WHAT ARE U DOING"
"I know that the cops are gonna loose us. We can find a cabin a long way from here and hide there till the heat dies down. Please trust me for once. "
Josh nods. But it was an uncertain nod, not the kind of nod that makes u feel well. Dodging trees, leaves, sticks, objects, i look over to see a man hanging from a tree, i cant tell if it was real or just one of my visions. My body goes into shock, i dont like to see that stuff. But i see it alot. My past is so fucked up, im so fucked up. My eyes dart back to in front of me. They are behind us still. Im getting mad. They need to just leave. They dont understand. I dont even understand half the time. 110, 111, 112, 11-
"TYLER FUCK WATCH OUT TURN TURN TURN TURN"
I look up to see a cliff and we are heading towards it, quickly, I turn thr car attempting to miss the cliff but its not successful. As the car falls both me and josh look at eachother.
"I LOVE U JOSH"  I scream
"I LOVE YOU TOO TY-"
Splash. Splash. Settling. The car is filling up with water. After a few seconds i wake up from a sudden sleep. I look over at josh and his eyes are closed, not moving, red water, red, red this water is now filling up the car. Josh. Josh is bleeding. Fuck. I lift him up to see his pocket knife has stabbed him in the back. Thats the knife i got him. I. I stabbed him in the back. Not litterally.  But. I dont know. I start to hyperventilate. I grab him and kick the window. It takes me a few tries but i get it. Glass cuts up my legs and josh's face. I felt pain but pleasure. The car floods with water suddenly and i swim out while struggling to breathe and pull up jish at the same time. 
As i am swimming up slowly. So many things are going through my head. I cant stop these thoughts. Everything is so bad. I cant deal with it. I cant feel my chest. I just have to send the pain below until i get me and josh to safety.
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As soon as i break from the barrier of water to air i gasp . im trying to catch my breathe. I make sure josh is above water too. I check his pulse. None. None. Fuck.
"Josh. Josh. Josh. JOSH. JOSH." fuck fuck fuck. Im shaking him. Trying to get a response. I start tearing up. I look up as i hear another siren. They are on boat this time. Why wont they just stop. They dont understand. They dont understand anything. I just stay there and watch them get closer. I van hear shouting but i dont care. All i can comprehend is josh is dead. Josh. As they pull up all they see is just me bawling. The sympathy in their eyes are almost non existent.   One of them gets in the water and grabs me. I try to hold on to josh but they take him away from me. Fuck. They just throw him into the water and let him sink.
"HE HAD A FUCKING CHANCE U SICK BASTARDS" i scream.
"Just mark it as cannot find other" one of them said to the other. "Atleast we got one. This should be fun". As they handcuff me and pull me into the boat. I just stare at our sinking car not knowing what to think anymore.

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