Sex Chronicles

Call Me What You Like

Donika Jackson

Mhmm fuck me daddy i said to the dude under me but I didn't even know who he was. How did I get this way you ask?? Shit let me get to that later don't interrupt me. I'll tell you when I'm ready. See I been this way since I was about 15. Since I never picked up the love I wanted from my mom and dad I got that shit on my own. Am I a hoe?? To you maybe but to me I'm just a woman looking for the love I never got. See it all started when I turned 15 years old and my body started filling out in all the right places. Damn nika my dad said sliding beside me in the bed you grew up just like I imagined he said playing in my hair. I couldn't say a word I was too scared. Turn over he ordered and I did just that. I never been so scared in my life. The man that's supposed to be protecting me from shit like this was taking the only the thing that made me feel like a woman away from me. To say I was hurt was an understatement. He did things to me that no dad should do to their daughter. You say anything I'll Kill you he told me. That's shit plays over and over again in my head. I have kept that secret for years. Now here I am almost 25 years old still fearing for my life. Mhmmmmmmmm the dude under me said releasing inside the condom. Shit I forgot he was even under me. That happens alot. Those flashbacks always fuck me up. My life shouldn't be like this. But I don't no any better or do I. I dint know though. Where's my money I said putting my out for the stranger under me too pay me. Damn Nika he said pushing me off of him. After all these years you still make me pay when you gone let me wife you he said seriously. I ignored him and said my money pls. I didn't even know this dude name but he wanted me to wife me. I laughed I just couldn't with these niggas. Pussy makes em say some weird shit so I wasn't tryna here that shit. What's funny the stranger asked me confused. Nun dude just pay me I said fully dressed i didn't have time for games this same nigga pulls the same shit Everytime I was over it. Just leave my money on the table I said going into the bathroom and Senti g in the sink I had to take my daily fix. I pulled out my lil baggie and took the white powder out of ny pocket. I took a lil out just enough to make two lines and I snorted it. I looked in the mirror and didn't like the person who looked back at me. This isn't how my life us supposed to be. I was supposed to be in college some where married with kids running around. This is not how I pictured my life turning out. Well I guess i gotta deal with it now. I came out the bathroom to see my guest gone. I looked over and seen my money laying in the table. I walked over and picked it up noticing a note beside it. The note read:

Look Nika,
I know you been hurt in life and I wanna be the one to change that. Let me in stop pushing my away. I been giving you time for years but you still treat me like one these niggas in the streets you been fucking wit. Ima still be here for you no matter what. I fell in love with you along time ago. Let me in. I know you been hurt but I'm here to change it. When your ready to stop playing games call me 317.445.6654 your future Jason 😘😘😘

A tear fell from my face. Nobody has ever did anything like this. I quickly wiped the tear away though as quickly as I came. I couldn't fall no shit like that though. My dad told me the same words. As a father he was supposed to protect me but he fucked my life up. I could never love no nigga Ever!! My daddy fucked that up. I folded the note and put it in my pocket I grabbed my shit and to go home...