The Things I Couldn't Say...[Editing]

If You Were Mine

That morning, I was at a breakfast café with Jungkook. I had explained to him about how I said that we were 'dating'. Just as I predicted, Jungkook wasn't too happy. 

"How could you tell a lie like that?" Jungkook said with a frustrated sigh.

"He said I was like a sister to him! I panicked, and that just came out," I said running my hand through my hair.

Suma came into the café with a big smile on her face. "I heard that you two were together," She said sitting at the table with us.

"Where did you hear that from?" I was even more upset that my sister was in my business. Suma smirked evilly.

"If you're with Jungkook, then does that mean I can ask Jimin out?" She asked waving her phone around.

Jungkook and I looked at each other and then looked back at her. What was I going to say? I was just learning that Suma was a bitch. She knew clearly that i still had fewlings for Jimin.

"Actually, Jungkook and I aren't together," I explained, "I'm still in love with Jimin, I just said something I didn't mean to say."

Suma laughed. She must be amused by my stupidity. "I always knew that you would mess up like this," She sighed, "I guess I should help you."

I nodded. Even though Suma was a bitch, she still was my sister. If she gave me advice, it was valid advice and actually helped me out a bit. "Okay, you have to continue to 'date' Jungkook," She advised.

"How will that get him to notice me?"

"If he really likes you, he'll get jealous seeing you two together and maybe he'll tell you his feelings. Then you can explain everything."

Her idea seemed crazy but, great at the same time. I didn't like the idea of lying and using Jungkook though. "Jungkook, would you be okay with this?" I asked touching his shoulder.

"If it'll help you, I'll gladly do it," he said without hesitation.

Suma clapped her hands together. "That settles it! Now, where do you think Jimin would be at this time?"

I knew exactly where he'd be. Back in high school, Jimin used to go to the dance studio in our neighborhood and practice.

So, Suma told me to go there and try to make Jimin as jealous as possible. Jungkook and I made our way to the dance studio. Jimin was doing exactly what I thought he would be doing. He was dancing. The one thing I knew he loved, was dancing. Performing was what made him confident. 

I walked into the practice room with Jungkook. "I see you're in the old practice room," I said with a big smile on my face. Jimin stopped dancing and smiled also. I couldn't explain how much I loved to see that smile. 

"Wanna join me?" Jimin asked holding his hand out and bowing like a prince. I giggled and took his hand. I was suddenly pulled close to him and he put his hand around my waist. This was the perfect chance to make him jealous. All I had to do is to look like I'm having more fun with Jungkook than with him.  When it was Jungkook's turn to dance with me, I tried to be as flirty as possible. I put my arms around his neck and leaned close to him. I glanced at Jimin to see if he was getting jealous but he didn't look jealous at all. 

******

Later that day, Jungkook had to go home and it was just Jimin and me again. We were sitting on a bench outside. "So, how does Jungkook treat you?" He asked looking up at the clouds.

Was that a jealous question? I was hoping that it was. What I wanted to do was tell him that I was in love with him and kiss him, but he has to see me as a woman first. How to do that was the question.

"He treats me well," I said awkwardly. We both sat there silently for a moment.

"So, do you love him?" His sudden question caught me off guard. What would I say? 

"Oh! Look at the time!" I changed the subject, "I'll see you tomorrow."

I quickly stood up and ran off before he could say anything else. As I ran off to my car, I put my hand over my chest and sighed. That was an awkward question. I got into my car and drove home. When I got home, Jungkook was waiting for me.

"I thought you went home. Why did you come here?" I asked opening my front door.

"I wanted to make sure you made it home safe," Jungkook said shyly.

I appreciated that he was worried about me. "Since you're here, you can keep me company."

Jungkook and I walked into my house and went to my room. I sat on my bed and Jungkook sat at the desk next to my bed. "I think this plan might be working," I said happily.

"Really? Did Jimin say something?" Jungkook asked leaning forward.
I smirked. Jimin sounded totally jealous when he asked how Jungkook treats me.

"He asked if I was in love with you. Exactly what a jealous person would ask, right?"

Jungkook nodded. "But what did you tell him?"

"I didn't say anything. There was no way I could answer that without telling him my feelings."

Jungkook sighed. He was probably upset that he had to lie to Jimin but, it wouldn't be long. I just had to be sure Jimin felt the same way for me as I felt for him. Once I was sure, Jungkook won't have to deal with me anymore and we can go back to being friends.

"Jungkook, you've been a great friend though all this, you know? You could've said no when I asked you to help me but, you didn't," I said smiling at him, "Anyways, when this is all over, I'll help you find a girlfriend. What kind girls do you like?"

"I can't answer that," Jungkook replied.
His response confused me.

"Why not?"

"I already have feelings for someone."
Now I was curious. Who could this person be? Was she pretty?

"Who is it? Does she live in Busan?" I asked.

"It's not Important, she likes someone else anyways."
       
"Come on, I'm sure if she gets to know you, she'll like you more than that other guy," I said ruffling his hair.
Jungkook didn't say anything else and just smiled lightly.

******
The next day, Jimin, Jungkook, and I were hanging out at a café. Sadly, Suma decided to join us. I was worried Suma was going to do something annoying or make me do something. While we were eating, Suma continued to ask questions about my relationship with Jungkook. Maybe it was to make Jimin jealous or maybe it was to irritate me.

"So, have you two kissed yet?" Suma asked with an evil smirk on her face.

All of us looked at her with surprised looks on our faces. How could she ask something like that in front of Jimin? Suma was taking this plan too far.

"That's something you should know, Suma," I said with a sarcastic smile.

"Really, I want proof you and Jungkook are together. What don't you two kiss right now?"

Everyone in the café heard what Suma said and looked over at us. They started cheering us on, chanting 'kiss, kiss, kiss' at us. Suma wasn't helping. I gave Jungkook an apologetic look and moved in closer to him. I took a breath and kissed his lips lightly. My heart was pounding. Maybe it was because it was my first kiss? I quickly pulled away from the kiss and we couldn't look at each other. Suma clapped her hands together.

"You two are so cute, right Jimin?" Suma said.

At that moment, I wanted to push Suma down a flight of stairs and set her on fire. That thought may have been too graphic, but that's what I thought. I was forced to kiss Jungkook. Now my first kiss is gone. I was saving it for Jimin and I ended up kissing Jungkook. How did my plans get so mixed up?