Worried

It's a long long long day since yesterday that we came here. I AM SO BACK IN THAILAND! Okay, I overreacted. This is the second time since 2017 started. And I couldn't be any happier. Especially when I'm with the members. Yup, I am with the U members except for Taeil hyung. Sad, how I wish U is complete. But anyway, we flew here because we are chosen to be the new endorser of a Thai snack which was previously endorsed by Kyuhyun sunbaenim.

During the 6-hour flight from Seoul to Bangkok, all I did was to talk to the members. I don't mind receiving occasional glares from them because I talk too much. I missed them! It's been a while since we're together like this. I'm in a different dorm back in Seoul because I am not promoting. My practice time is different from them also. Now, who wouldn't miss them? Especially him. He doesn't have time for me anymore. Well, he's busy. I understand. It's just that, I keep on missing him. Yes, we always make sure to have a phone call or message. But that's not enough. You know what, I sometimes want to be selfish. I sometimes want him to stay by my side always. There comes a time that I am battling with myself to ask him to choose between his career or me. Then I realized, what if I am in his situation? What if it's me who's promoting and not him? Dancing has always been something important to him. I know that. Why? Because it's the same for me. That's one of the many reasons why we click. Yes, he's Korean and I'm a Thai. But nationality isn't something to be talked about. It's about the passion we both have that brought us where we are right now.

So, back to what I was saying. Though he's with me right now, I still miss him. We are sharing the same hotel room and I am currently teaching him some Thai words. Guess he's getting ready for our Morning Show appearance tomorrow. We just finished our press conference and tomorrow is a start of another activity for us.

"Ten?"

"Hey?"

"Babe?" Okay, that 'babe' brought me back to reality.

"Huh?"

"Well, you're spacing out... again."

"Uh. Sorry. Where are we again?" And we continue with our little Thai teaching session.

I miss you. But I don't think you miss me too. You keep on distancing yourself to me. You think I'm not noticing it? I did. I just don't know when it started. All I know is that I see you being far away from me even though we're together. We don't have a problem, right? Tell me, we don't have.

And our night finished just like that. Me teaching him Thai words. After a good night and a kiss on my forehead was shared and he fell asleep already. Maybe, he's tired. Yes, non-stop promoting in Seoul then Thailand all of a sudden. He's tired. That's right, Ten. Don't think too much.

Goodnight, babe. I love you.

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"Ten..."

"Babe."

"We're gonna be late."

"Wake up, baby."

I miss his voice. His sweet voice whenever he calls me. Say it again, please. I heard the door closed. I sighed and open my eyes. He goes out of our room, probably to check the other members if they're up already. I slowly, very slowly like lazily got out of bed and do my morning routine. Because if ever he comes back and I'm still on the bed, non-stop nagging is what will I hear from him.
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Smile, Ten. Smile. Fans are crowding you, cameras all around you. Better put your bright smiles, okay? I need to remind myself every single time since we left the hotel. We just arrived at the venue and the staffs are just clearing the area so we can pass by the crowd. When everything is all set, we step out of the van and proceeded inside the building.