~ Half A Heart ~ A.I Ashton Irwin Fanfic

the real us...

Stephanie's p.o.v

All I could think about is, looking perfect, pretty

while in reality, I looked Horrific, Grotesque as shit, why am I so fat?

I would spend hours not trying to eat,

now I am too scared to weigh myself.

I see my Blades in a little black box under my desk

I go and get the box. This is for everything wrong in my life, I deserve this,

Blood makes me crave it the only thing to stop my Hunger.

I go to the restroom, I lock the door once I am in the restroom and sit on the floor

I slit the cold Sharp blade onto my wrists making me wince

Red oozing liquid dripping onto the white polished tile

I make 10 slits on each wrist ...

My thighs have 20 each ...

I clean the blood of the white flooring

Ashton's P.o.v

I remembered ... I had to eat I promised

I promised Luke I will eat.

I am worried that my old friend will come back its name is

Bulimia...

I do not look great, I look horrendous, Fat, Distasteful.

"Ash where are you, come eat I made your Favorite" Luke says yelling

I got out of the restroom really fast, then I went to my room

" I am in my room and is it spaghetti and meatballs," I say making a distasteful face

"yeah come down," Luke says

I walk down stairs making sure not to look at my horrendous picture from the past ...

"Ash come," cal says surprised

"yeah come eat this spaghetti and meatballs are great Luke made them, dining," Mikey says

"ok," I say while pulling dining chair

            I see a huge plate of Spaghetti in front of my eyes ...

"I just realized I am not that hungry, I ate a while back" I lie

                       "Ash you promised me you were going to eat look at you, you look like a twig," Luke says worriedly

  (this means thoughts)    // I am not a twig, Im not even skinny, you could only see extra fat on my body not even able to see my toes //

          "Im not a twig ok, I am fucking fat you don't see this extra fatness" I spat

" No your not fat, you are a fucking twig, you are so skinny, at least eat " Luke says pressuring Ashton

                                 " fine " Ashton says giving up

               As soon as I finished the huge plate of spaghetti ,

      I ran upstairs to the restroom,

locked the door ...

I crouch down knee level hovering the toilet,

          bringing my index finger and middle finger

                    down my throat.

At this point,

I Gave up...

     I purged letting the feeling of Emptiness take over me ...

" Ashton what happened? " Luke says worried...

                                               MY EYES GOT WIDER...