Millie's POV
I should've known that it was trouble just waiting to happen. I should have known that it was a crazy dangerous move that would risk everything for us. Everything that we built up crashed down because I made a stupid choice.
Instead of avoiding all the terrible possibilities of losing him... I rolled the dice and it landed on the wrong end. If I wasn't that damn stupid then maybe he would've still been here, in my arms, in my life, and most of all, in my goddamn heart...
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There were nights where I dreamt about him. I stirred and cried in my sleep and my parents were thinking about bringing me to a psychologist but I refused and lied that I would be fine. But the truth is... I wasn't. Ever since that night where it all came down, I was never the same...
I had depression for over a year... I didn't notice that I suffered terribly for a goddamn year. When I finally looked up and saw the world I was in, I finally changed. I brought myself up and noticed that I had to change and start a new world without him... It wouldn't always be about him...
My life seemed to get tougher and it was hard to battle against it. There was never a night that my dreams weren't about him. It took some time to convince myself that he was gone. Long gone...
It was easier for me to be happy to think that he was dead. Yes, I convinced myself to think that he was dead. It broke my heart to think it but it would only be harder if I thought he was still out there... Breathing, developing a relationship, having a job, and most of all, not thinking about me...
When life gives you a new opportunity, take it. I swear to god it would be worth it. I believe people could change and I hope he did too. If he's out there happy then I should be too... I shouldn't be the only one who was still broken-hearted after all these years. I never should let myself be that way again.
I should have known better to not let that goddamn Finn Wolfhard into my life.
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Mills is convincing herself that he's gone. But is he really?
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Hayran Kurgu"Brown eyes, messy hair, funny, sweet... Maybe an angel from Heaven..." He kept coming back... Like a nightmare you can't seem to get rid of... (Don't read if you didn't read first book; The Boy Across The Room) 💜 - - - - Old user was: @ElevenIsMy...
