[Intro]
We are here today to remember the life and the good times we all had with Gunnar Lovelace. He was a father, husband, and most of all friend to his family and friends.
Would anyone like to say some words for Gunnar and/or his family?
[Verse 1]
Hello, my name is Twila Lovelace
Gunnar was a friend and a husband
He told me he wouldn’t hurt me
He told me he’d never leave
But I’m going to far let’s go back
Back ten years in the past
I was sitting in my beat-up car
I was drinking an ice cold one
I was regretting I ever bought it
Spent all the money for this month on it
Couldn’t believe I just blew my rent
But I couldn’t think straight I was spent
Last thing I remember was passing out
Then I was being moved about
I awoke, whatever happened I will never know
Had a hangover so bad I haven't felt so low
I have no money and nowhere to go
My heart is like a rip that can't be sowed
Looked at the clock, it was three past noon
The sun was out but I had a darkened mood
[Chorus] (x2)
I was lost, broken and alone
Spirit shattered to the bone
Everything I love is gone
‘Cause no one can see through my eyes
And to my anger it will rise
[Verse 2]
I was at my lowest and then he stepped in
He was the one who taught me how to grin
But this is where it really starts to begin
After we locked eyes it was a spark
Now he knows that I left my mark
We were off to a good start
Then it started up again
It’s my burden my curse
It was given at birth
It’s my bipolar syndrome
Some days it would be okay
Then I couldn’t remember a thing
I’d wake up in the bed the next morning
I’d ask what happened ‘cause I couldn’t remember anything
Tears would form in his eyes and he’d recall the night before
He said the door wouldn’t stop creaking
So then I smashed in the door
And from there it would just get worse
From here my anger shall disperse
I tried to control it but I just couldn’t
So I started using it to my advantage
I used it to get what I wanted when I wanted it
I was finally the queen of my castle
Hanging him like a tassel
‘Cause if I was a bee I would sting forever
He wouldn’t leave me no not ever
He made me his lady
But he’ll hurt me so badly
If he made me mad, I told him I was a bomb
And that I’m about to go off
He said, “Then let’s clip the wires before you go off.’’
But baby don’t see that I’m already too far gone
[Chorus](x2)
[Verse 3]
Then the fight, the one the hit the nail on the head
The one that laid me down to bed
The one that left us all seeing red
So close your eyes and hold on tight
This is going to be the ride of your life
This is where our plane hits turbulence
Somebody please call the ambulance
This fight was almost the death of me
And I will try to make you all believe
Why I am the reason he made me leave
I wanted something He wouldn’t let me have it
I blacked out he followed behind me yes he did
I woke up, Dawn had come and gone
My daughter walked in seeing what we’d done
I told her come to mommy told her dad was crazy
I told her daddy tried to kill me
She came to me and I held her tight
I did only what I thought was right
And when he woke up; I told it to him blunt
Told him I was leaving we couldn’t live like this
My poor little girl she was just caught in the midst
Told her to pack her toys and her clothes
Said that we had somewhere to go
When we left I slammed the door
Causing it to break some more
After days of begging I got us to live with my mom
In her cramped two-room apartment
I did what was right, but why did I feel wrong
Although, this didn’t last for long
That night I heard a bang at the door
I thought it was dream, so I rolled over and snored
That was before I heard that gun go off
I jumped out of bed screaming Oh God
I ran up to my daughter and asked her what happened
She told me that daddy went to live in heaven
I walked outside and I was surprised
He wrote on the wall with his blood
‘The battle is over and you win’
“But you are still forgiven’
That’s why I’m here speaking to all of you
And thank you for listening to my ups and my woes
That was the last she said before she died of a drug overdose
