never stop dreaming.

hello, i'm daniel!

hello, i'm daniel! i decided to start a blog on the internet to find someone with whom i could share everything, so here's my life:

i live in a small flat not so far from seattle. my parents are divorced, so i live with my mom, stepdad and stepsister annie.

my mom and annie argue all the time, my stepdad is always shouting at me, my mom never understands or even wants to understand me. and that's the main reason why i want to move to new york (or any other place, but this city is the best option because of the columbian university, where i extremely want to enter).

but, unfortunately my family isn't so rich and we almost can't afford even an eat-out. my family can't afford to buy a car, so i take a 1 hour ride to school by subway every day. we can't afford new school supplies every academic year, so i'm still using my old "spider man" school set for 4 years.

i haven't got any friends, because nobody wants to chill out with a 16 year old guy who buys himself clothes once in three years (and in second-hand market) and still hasn't got a girlfriend.

i had one friend jack, but after 5 years of our friendship he told me that he's gay and he wants to date me. that's how our friendship ended. and, after him i had no other friends.

i never visit school-parties, because nobody invites me there. all our school, even some teachers call me a nerd. that's because, all of my classmates drink, smoke not just cigarettes, but even weed. i never tried vodka or whisky, i only tried champagne once. i never smoke and even never tried to.

all my classmates have girlfriends/boyfriends and i'm the only one who is still single. but, i am in love with one girl in our class called lily. i've been loving her since middle school, but she never paid attention to me.

lily is 15 years old. she is quite tall and skinny. her hair is strawberry blonde and curly. her eyes are blue like the atlantic ocean and her voice is sweeter than any cake. her lips are soft-peachy color and she never does too much makeup. only a sparkly lip balm on her lips and some concealer to be even more beautiful. lily is the smartest girl in our class, she always gets "A"s. she is the most favorite student of our physics, biology and latin teachers. she is very attentive, lily never forgets their birthdays or to congratulate them on every single holiday. my heart is melting like an ice-cream near the sun when i see her and i want to kill any boy, who hugs or even touches her.

dear blog, sos! help me! i don't know what to do. should i forget about my family problems, stay here and tell lily about my feelings or go and achieve my goals and forget about my one and only love?
                                                      xoxo,
                                                           Daniel