I Do, Do I?

Every girl's dream is to be a bride,

Of that man who made her world collide.

Every girl's dream is to be a princess,

Wear a veil, and a beautiful white dress.

As she walks down the aisle, I sat and stare,

The guests watch her, as she thumbs through her hair.

I am now seeing, the girl that my man will marry,

The man that I dream of, the man I love so very.

It breaks my heart to see him there,

He's waiting for his bride, without a care.

I can see in his eyes, all into her,

Seems like everything, that day could ever conquer.

Music playing, guests are clapping.

Birds are chirping. My heart is breaking.

My eyes shed tears, for a reason I can't explain.

But is it him, or me to blame?

I remember the day, when my dreams were almost true,

The day I was supposed to marry to you.

I cannot sleep the night before,

In my mind, memories I adore.

I wore a dress, you wore a coat,

Today is the day, our marriage, our oath.

I walked down the aisle, everyone stares,

As if I'm the star, which no one compares.

I've reached the altar, I've reached you,

And I thought to my self, "What a dream come true."

This is the moment, this is the vow,

All I need is to answer now.

I'm about to say, "I do" to you,

Then all of a sudden, skies turned black from blue.

Didn't know why, didn't know what to do,

But in that moment, I never knew.

I ran fast, like a runaway bride,

I have left you. I've left your side.

I can't explain the feeling inside,

But I just ran, for I can't decide.

For years I've lived in a dome of shame,

For once I thought of changing my name.

"I love him, that I know it's true,

But where is he now? I have no clue."

I started living as if nothing happened,

Then one day I saw him, with my eyes wide opened.

I wanted to approach him, to apologize,

But the woman beside him, I cannot recognize.

I walked closer. To them I go nearer,

Then I saw the girl, her image was seen clearer.

I was shocked, so I stopped and cried,

It was his ex, which from the past have lied.

They seemed happy. They didn't even notice me,

But my man turned his head, and it was me to see.

He said "Hi!" I said "Hello.",

But for that moment, I just want to hide within my shadow.

His smile seemed okay. He seemed to be fine,

He even invited me, with them to dine.

We were okay, as if no bitterness before,

But he told me, "It's from the past that we must ignore".

Days have passed, we were okay,

He even invited me to their wedding day.

He sent me a dress, and a lovely bouquet,

And then, I have nothing left to say.

I cried all night, awake I stay,

I'll be watching him, as he will say,

"Yes, I will marry you. And I promise, from this day,

I will love you, and love me if you may."

I'm in doubt. I don't know what to do,

Why? Why did I ever leave you?

Can I say sorry? I just didn't know what to do.

Please, don't say "I do."

For I'm just here,

Watching, and waiting for you.