The Things I Couldn't Say...[Editing]

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I woke up with a headache. A lot happened yesterday. I finally confessed my feelings to Jimin and Jungkook kissed me last night. But why would he do that? I barely got any sleep last night because of it. How was I gonna face Jungkook or Jimin? I ruffled my hair in distress.

Trying to take my mind off things, I get out of bed and look in my mirror. My hair was a mess and my eyes were tired. I needed some time to myself so I could think about what happened. I was suddenly startled by my phone going off. It was a message from Jimin. I held my breath as I looked at the message.

'Are you awake? We should get some coffee together'

I sighed. My feelings were all mixed and I had the most aggressive headache. How was I supposed to face Jimin? But it's just coffee and I really needed some.

'Sure, let's meet at the café in an hour'

I agreed to do it. It couldn't be that bad. As long as I don't run into Jungkook while I'm with Jimin, I'll be fine. I continued to tell myself that as I got ready for the day.

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At the café, I was staring at my iced coffee and twirling the straw. I couldn't get Jungkook out of my mind. Why would he kiss me? I just didn't understand. He's my best friend. I continued to tell myself he was just drunk and didn't know what he was doing, but even I didn't believe that.

"Is there something on your mind?" Jimin asked smiling at me.

I was snapped out of my thoughts. "N-no, I was just distracted," I said glancing up at him.

Jimin's hand moved across the table and touched mine. He linked our hands together and I reflexively smiled.

"Why are you so distracted?" Jimin asked.

"I was just thinking about you," I lied. The truth was that I was thinking of Jungkook, but I couldn't tell him that. I finally got what I wanted, but now I don't know what I want. Just two days ago, I wanted only to be with Jimin. I wanted him to at least recognize my feelings. I have more than I wanted. Jimin didn't just recognize my feelings, he wants to return them. But last night, there was Jungkook. He suddenly kissed me and I don't know what do anymore. Before, I didn't even think of Jungkook in any type of romantic way. Now all of a sudden, I see him differently.

After Jimin and I finished our coffee, Jimin walked me to my car. "Before you go, I need to ask you something," Jimin said leaning closer to me.

"Yea, what do you need to know?" I said looking away.

"How long have you had feelings for me?"
Why was he suddenly asking me that? What an embarrassing question. I felt my face heat up in embarrassment.

"Actually, it's been since high school," I said, "which is the main reason I haven't dated guy in my life."

Jimin ruffled my hair and smiled. "That's the cute thing about you." That's all he said before kissing my cheek and walking away.

I reflexively touched my cheek. I should be happy that this was happening. Not wasting time thinking about Jungkook. Even though that's what I told myself, I couldn't forget what happened that night.

What did Jungkook mean when he said he wanted to test something? There was so much I wanted to ask him, but I didn't know how. I shook those thoughts away and got into my car. I was going to the park so I could clear my mind. It was a quick ride from the café to the park and before I knew it, my car was parked in the parking lot. I decided to sit under a large tree and think. I set a blanket down on the grass and laid on it. I closed my eyes and soon fell asleep. I was asleep for a few hours and then I woke up.