Three lots of Messed Up // Victorious Fanfiction

Deciding with an Empty Heart

Jade sat alone in the clinic.

***

Jade's POV:

I knew he would hate me, I fucking knew it! That's why I have to get rid of it...I have to! 

I don't even think I'd be able to hold a baby, let alone raise it! Beck is right...kids are disgusting and I know that although deep down I agree with him...I don't know whether or not I think that about my own child...But... I'm only just 17 (by 2 months)...I know the time isn't right...but this be my one chance at a future with Beck Oliver...snap out of it!!

You're Jade West, you are tough and little things like that don't get to you...

I will abort it and move on with my life...with a little bit less dignity now that the whole school knows...

***

NO POV:

Jade was too busy solemnly staring at her feet that she didn't notice Beck sit beside her on the empty plastic chair

"Hi" he began, startling her 

"Go" She croaked, he noticed that through her cold exterior, she was crying like a maniac inside

"No...If you are having the abortion...I atleast want to hold your hand" He said adamantly 

"I don't think you get it Beck..." Jade straightened up "I need to take care of this mess, by myself"

"I know" he said staring a head at a loved up pregnant couple "but I don't want us to be like that" he shuddered

"Would it be that tragic if we were?" Jade scoffed

"Kinda..." Beck said arrogantly "Surely you don't want to get...round" he watched his words and made daggers at her stomach

"Beck...you're forgetting that this is a person we are discussing" Jade grunted through gritted teeth

"I'm just angry J" he stared straight into her ivy coloured eyes "You should've told me..."

"I tried...but..."

"but what!" he pressed her 

"WE'RE MEANT TO BE EVERYONE'S DREAM RELATIONSHIP" Jade blurted, causing a few people in the area to turn their heads however turn back when they realised it was nothing 

"and?"

"We aren't meant to mess up...I'm the rebellious goth that everybody is scared to talk to let alone have sex with...and you" she stared at him, melting inside "you are the chilled bad boy type who EVERYONE wants to be their boyfriend...but somehow you chose me..." Jade stalled her crying and quickly snapped "We weren't meant to fuck up this much" she put her head in her hands 

"Jade" Beck sighed, breaking his arrogant exterior and rubbing her back sympathetically "We can work through this"

"But we will always be the teen fuck ups who aborted their child"

"Its messed up either way...because if we keep it we are constantly ridiculed for it...and if we put it up for adoption...theres always a chance it will track us down..." 

"I'm scared Beck...I'm so fucking scared and I just wish we used a fucking condom" Jade raged as elder people in the waiting area gave a disapproving look 

"JADELYN WEST?" A nurse called out, Jade gave Beck a watery look and croaked "you coming?" to which he gripped her hand as they followed her 

***