Love the Way You Lie

Take Me to Church

Soft lips left mine. As did short freckled covered arms unwrap from around my waist. In surprise I had jumped back, so Pumpkin had adjusted himself back on his side of the couch. He was red of course, but he remained as calm as he could. He simply grabbed his bottle water from the floor and took a drink of it. Trying desperately to avoid my gaze. I was still stuck with my weight on my hands. I shook my head and slowly sat up as I had slouched forward and rested my hands in the crevice between my nose and top lip. I could still bearly feel Pumpkins lips on my own. He pulled away so fast. But had he stayed there, what would I have done?

Bad thoughts began to appear in my head of things I think I wanted to do to him. Because I liked him? No. This was lust. Lust that was assured I could have fallen in to had I said the right things. But then. I suddenly began to imagine the acts with Pumpkin and myself.

I shook my head as I looked over at Pumpkin. Who was lost in his own thoughts? Perhaps he is realizing what I am? Before we had become friends, I played boy. I never pushed it. But I had options. But after so long of not having those options, I have them at long last. But what of Pumpkin? What was he realizing? Perhaps that he could finally 'get some'. Which was a lot for him to take in? Especially if he was not prepared to have this be an option today. I let out a slow sigh. No.

That is something I would never do to Kevin.

Those thoughts and actions are in the past. Those actions are for immature hormonal teens. I am.. I am a mature and steady headed adult. And while Kevin has surely never had that experience, he was surely able to control himself. Right?

"Kevin!" I had waved at Kevin as he was leaving the locker room after the homecoming game. The guys were excited and emotional about the outcome of the game. Kevin had managed to make a miracle touchdown after intercepting the ball from the other team. It was quite amazing what he did. I had waited patiently outside the stadium where the locker rooms lead straight out of. I waited per request of Kevin as he was being tossed around by his team. Of course, I waited. With no one to go home to, I had to wonder what Kevin had thought of for us to do in celebration.

But while I watched him make his way up the ramp, a thought occurred to me. What if he wanted tonight to be THE night? Oh, my. I am not sure how I will handle this. I tried to reassure myself that Kevin wouldn't push me as such as he engulfed me in a hug.

"Hey Double D! Aren't you excited? We won!" He pulled away as he left his left arm over my shoulders as we began to walk to his motorcycle. I am not sure why we took it in the first place, something about wanting to leave as soon as possible after the game.

"Yes, I was quite enthralled by your performance Kevin. You made everyone proud." I smiled up at him as he shrugged.

"Only person I want to make proud is you Double D." he laughed as I stopped in my tracks. He always said things like that to see my reaction. He pulled me along as he passed me a helmet from inside a satchel. I took it with thanks as I still feared this death trap on wheels. As he straddled the seat and got comfortable, I lifted my leg up and over, but stood there on one leg for a second picturing myself straddling a naked Kevin under me. With a smile and dark lustful eyes. I then sat down as Kevin started up his bike. But he did look back at me as I then noticed I had not wrapped my hands around his waist.

"You ok Edd?" he raised an eyebrow at me.

"Ehm. Yes. However, Kevin, I would indeed feel better if you would wear your helmet as well. It is a busy street tonight and there is no need to be reckless." I let out a small sigh of relief as Kevin pulled his helmet from the other satchel laughing.

"Fine fine Double D. Whatever makes you feel the most comfortable." I stared at him as he unhooked the straps. Before he could place it on his head and turn back around,  I lean forward and placed my lips on top of his. I closed my eyes and let my instinct take over. As much as I wanted to retreat and apologize. I couldn't. When I felt the need for air, I pulled away and stared at Kevin with half-lidded eyes. His were still closed. But soon he realized that I had pulled away. He opened his eyes slowly and a red blush fell across his cheeks.

Our first kiss.

After homecoming.

In the parking lot.

On a motorcycle.

After being together for about 4 months.

I could see a number of things flash through Kevin's mind. I felt my face warm up as he pulled me to him again. But this time. Much more heated with wolf whistles around us.

I shook my head as Pumpkin cleared his throat.

"I...I'm sorry. I should... I shouldn't have done that." He placed a hand over his mouth. As if to say more would hurt him. In which case was true. I have not said anything, nor have I given him an opening gesture of acceptance of his feelings.

I knew not what to do in this situation. I was interested in men yes. But never have I had the pleasure of calling my own. So what should I do? I wasn't sure if he would want a heart pouring confession or if he could stipulate what was going through my head.

What should I do?