Life Is A Beautiful struggle

1.

*gasping*
Holding my face in tears
Waking up from a dead sleep
Hit me all at once
The tightness in my chest
My lungs filling up with water Even worse than the burning in my throat
*shaking*

~rewind~

*Buzz* *Buzz*

Rolling over out of my bed to grab my phone
*sigh*
First day of high school
*sigh*
Should I skip?
Noooo mom and dad would kill me ...

Dad:kodi , let's go
Me:I'm up ...

Looking at my school schedual

Nervously I read my teachers names Mr. ,Miss,  Mrs, & coaches

Shit! I panic as I lost grip of my schedual
Now I'm screwed...
*huff* ... running every name I saw on that paper so I'm not completely lost .
A car drives by really fast.
I jump a car with 3 guys pulls up driving as I'm walking

Driver: need a ride ?
Me: *walks faster *
No thanks .
 

Before they drive off
I glanced at the three guys
The Driver looked older, possibly a senior, dark hair ,tan complexion. The passenger had blond, flipy hair, blue eyes. He may be in my grade...
The guy in the back seat? All I saw was his shirt, which was black.
The minute I was seen I felt like an outcast. faces looking at me , whispers. .. it was all in my head through no one was actually paying attion they were all in there own world's with there "clicks" as my mom would say .
Now I either go my day alone or find some one . I glance around were all the cars are with people chilling,  jocks? deff no, cheerleaders? nope
Nerds? Maybe for class (I laugh at myself)  
Not paying attion I run right into a taller guy black shirt , I automatically turn red
He said hey your that girl who Damon asked for a ride
(Damon- driver)
I shook my head
Not Evan realizing I was edmiring his face I snapped back into reality when a girl came running up yelling ty!
We're Damon was he pointed
Ty : so ... um since your new I mean I've never seen you here before you want us to show you around I could get some of Damon's girls to help you out
Me: (almost a wisper) sure
*Bell rings*
Ty:well you coming ?
Me: yea

I follow ty to a group of girls all were smoking behind a piller Damon comes up right as we get to them . I have a gut feeling I should be in that school
But I stay . I shadow them out as they talk
"Hey?" I glance up to the guy that was in the passenger seat . "Luke" he gesters me to shake his hand so I do "kodi" I say back
Luke:you know your late right
I shake my head with a smile... "yea?"
He laughs
"Guys" let's go - damon
I follow we all jump into a care me , 3 guys
The girls jump into another n follow
Oh ! Kodi? - Damon
Me:hm?
Damon : your ok with all this right ? skimping and shit
Me:mhmm
(Totally lying)