Best Friend + Matthew Espinosa

56. Goodbye party.

August 7, 2016-

I'm in the car, on the passenger seat while Matthew is on the driver seat driving to Luke's house that he's moving out of.

I'm leaning my head against the window watching the house pass bay and in a deep thought. I know what decision to make but I don't know if it's the best for me.

Matthew's hand is on my thigh, his thumb gently rubbing against my skin. I look over at him and with a small smile on my lips as he look over at me.

"You okay, baby? You look stressed out." He says furrowing his eyebrows, he takes off his hand from my thigh to help him grip the wheel while turning right.

"I'm fine, just thinking." I sigh deeply. I started playing with my earring while looking out the window.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He tuned down the music that I didn't even know was playing.

"It's okay." He reaches over grabbing my hand before intertwining it, he smiled at me and look back at the road.

Minutes later, we reached our destination. We crawl out of the car and begin walking hand-in-hand to the loud house. The music was blasting loudly making the ground shake.

When we knocked on the door, I heard someone hushing them as the music turned down. When the door opened, everyone jumped up from their hiding spots. They raised their red cups in the air while yelling.

"Make some noise for Matthew and Jannalyn!" The DJ yelled, everyone started screaming and danced wildly when the music started playing.

Everyone I knew from LA were here, My friends from high school and some people I met this summer were here. I noticed the the poster that's taped on the wall it read, Goodbye party 2k16.

This is going to be my last summer party with all my friends before I go. Instead of being emotional and start tearing up, I drag Matthew with me to the kitchen.

"Easy there." He chuckles as I fill my cup with vodka, I put some soda in there also.

"It's our last party, might as well have fun, baby." I wink, he bit his lip looking at me up and down then filled his cup just like mine.

Time to get turnt.

When the alcohol begin to kick in inside of me, I started dancing wildly to the music. I sway my hips to the music, when the beat would drop, I would jump up and down like the crowd. I look around me looking for Matthew but I didn't see until I caught his hazel eyes watching at me.

He was leaned against the wall sipping on his red cup, his eyes were on me with a smirk on his face. A seductive kind of smirk. I motioned him to come dance with me but he shook his head.

"I'm a terribly dancer." I saw him mouthed. I couldn't help but smirk, I knew what he was doing. He's not a terrible dance, he's just making excuses so he can just watch me instead.

"No." I mouthed back, he nods and bit his lip. His eyes eyed me up and down with his lip between his teeth.

The way he looks at me makes me go nuts and feel some type of way. I feel confident and beautiful.