Although The Child Is Not Mine.....

Although The Child Is is not mine....

My friends say I am a very stupid guy because i am very easy going with everyone, I never get angry if someone does bad to me. I would smile and forgive them without a second thought. I would do anything for anyone, even to my haters. I just can't be bad to them. I mean, I don't know. I don't have that kind of feelings to take a revenge, hate or dislike someone.

Now, if I tell you something about me personally; like my hobbies, ambition,  my secrets and all, well, I am a tall guy with a hair style which is always combed to my left side of the head. I like listening to music so badly that it has become my habit where I can't go to bed without music. I want to be no one later. I just want to be me.

Now, if I tell you my secrets little bit, there is a big mole on the tip of my penis. I am hot in bed but I don't choose random girls. I like farting in the bed with my head covered by blanket and smelling if the smell is really bad. I am funny and i can make you laugh even in the intense situations.

I am writing this story and this is my first time in Wattpad. I wonder if I am writing well but I know that I can write pretty well. I mean, that's what my friends said. I am not really sure about it.

Today is Friday. My friend is asleep beside me on his bed. I think he is trying to fall asleep but I notice him turning left to right frequently. He said he can't sleep well at night. Oh shit! It's not Friday. The time is 1:35 am and it's very early Saturday morning or should I say midnight?

Last couple days, I having been going through a lot. I am so tensed. I feel betrayed. I feel unappreciated and useless. Last week on Wednesday, I went to play a basketball with my friend's and we had a match but something struck me like a thunderbolt and i couldn't even reach the play ground.

I have my girlfriend who is so pretty. I love her like anything and she means a lot to me. We love each other so much. I mean, no. This is wrong. I am not really sure about her feelings. On the way, I got a message from her. She said, "I have got something very important to tell you."

"What is it? I am curious know about it." I typed the message and sent it quickly.

"Find someone better than me. Now it's time you have to leave me. I am sorry for everything. You are gonna hate me so much now." She replied making my heart beat fast.

Friends walked ahead of me and i remained frozen on the ground, on where I was standing. I was shocked and fully flummoxed to hear something very weird from her expectantly.

"No, I am not gonna hate you and i won't leave you. Why would I do that?  Why are you being so weird Today?" I asked her, wishing if i could hear what she was thinking at the moment. Then she replied, "I am pregnant. I am sorry."
What! What did she say? Pregnant, right? A baby of mine? No, no. She is joking. I asked her again, "are you serious?"

"Yes, I am 100% serious. I am not lying to you."
"Am I the father of child?"
"Nope" she replied curtly.

What the fuck! My world went turning round. My heart broke into shards. Well, maybe not into shards but my heart broke painfully, excruciatingly.

"Hey, what you doing there? Come fast." My friends called me but I felt my foot rooted on the ground. I didn't get the nerves to move and i felt myself falling from the edge of precipice into the crevice full of pain, sorrow and misery.

She said she is being faithful to me but with whom did she fuck and got Pregnant? I was having hard time to gather myself from the shock. That was so hard and raw to chew like a stone.

"What kind of joke is that? I have been so faithful to you, loved you like anything and is that how you reward my love with betrayal and perfidy?" I typed the message to her though my hands were shaking so badly.

She said, "I am sorry" but would that fix my broken heart? Would that heal the wound and bring me back to normal track? Lol. She has fucked with someone while I was far way from her and you know how heartbreaking that is? Man, it is really dreadly.
I am sinking in the quagmire of asphyxiating sorrows. I can never get rid off this one. It made me different person.

I couldn't reply her immediately. By the time I came back to sense, my friends were on the basketball court playing the match. I was still where I was left behind by them. Then i realised, I was crying for the first time in my life. I mean, no girl ever made me cry and she was first to do that.
She must be a whore. I said to myself angrily. I felt frustrated, feelings boiling at thousand temperature and mind spinning faster than the tornado.

This is so sad. I have been expecting a flower from her but she gave me damn shit. I never saw her as the same person we met on the first day of our meeting. Now she was a cheater, heart breaker, and bitch to me. I didn't feel the same for her like before.

When I reached back to room, I asked, "who is the father of child?"
"There is a guy who is the dancer at the club but he is saying he can't take the responsibility of child. So I am planning to abort it."

What the .... i mean, what the hell? I asked to myself if she has got brain to think.  Who would kill her child and what kind of Bastard made the child who is not willing to take the responsibility of baby later? I couldn't think on what she just said to me. Abort the child? No, no. I can't bear that. I am a very devoted Buddhist man and i am always cautious of my karma. I should do something about it.

But what can I do about it? The child is not mine and why should I be responsible? It's not my job to take the responsibilty of other's child.  Is it? But she is going to abort the baby and can I walk away silently from her as if i never knew her? Can i pretend that she never aborted the baby?

"Oh my Lord! Do something for me. I am so perplexed and confused." I prayed to my precious masters for their blessings. What would they want me to do if they knew about my situation?

"Are you really going to abort the baby?" I asked my girlfriend once more to assure myself. 
"I am sorry. I don't have other options. I can't face my parents without the father of child. And I am not ready to give birth. I have to do it." She responded me.

Holy shit. I was going crazy. What am i gonna do Now? I scrunched my face with palm and screamed out loud. This is crazy. I shouted in the room, annoyed and angry.

But then,  somewhere from the corner of my brain, it said, just be cool and smile. But could I do that? The girl I loved the most has got pregnant with someone's child and she is going to abort now. What the hell am I going to do? I was going mad and insane.

Then i said, "don't abort the baby. I will take the responsibility of the child. When the time comes, tell your parent's that i am the father of child."

What! Have I gone mad? Did I just write that to her? Yes, I did. She said she is so sorry and cried a lot. She said I am the saviour of her and her child. But there was no other person who would save her. So I had to do it. And then, I realised that i am still the stupid guy my friends think I am. The moment I said I am going to take the responsibility of child, I forgave her and promised her that I will love her more than before because i am just a stupid guy. I don't know how to hate. I  can't be harsh on someone who has done bad to me. I am really really a stupid guy.

She is pregnant for two months now. She complains a lot about pregnancy symptoms and she is happy that i am still with her. I thought, even if she shot me I will be with her 'cause I am just a stupid guy.

Although the child is not mine but I am happily waiting for his/her birth. I pray that the child comes out healthy and strong.  I shared my story to my roommate and he congratulated me on becoming a father soon. Hope you will also feel same for me.

Though I don't have a job, or stable source of earning income but I am going to work hard to make my wife and child happy. Even my family.

I just want to tell you not be a stupid guy like me. Be a better person and be the source of happiness to the people around you.
Life is difficult. So many unexpected things happen. If it ever happens to you, don't be shocked. Just be calm and smile because it doesn't last forever. Make your life worthlivig. Some people will try to bring you down. Some will always stab you from behind. Some will hurt you. But forgive them all. Just be you and be happy. Help those who bring you down, who hurt and stab you from behind.  They will realise that your value is greater than diamond 

Thanks
With love
Chimi