I'm that girl

One| I'm that little girl

I was this little girl who was scared. I was scared to wake up in the morning. To face myself everyday. But I did it. I did it for 18 years. I got up in the morning and faced myself in the mirror the scariest thing I could do all day.
And here I am now covered in dirt sitting in a police station with my best friend and my boyfriend. Oh you don't know the story? Well here let me tell you. About a year ago my alarm went off. As I opened my eyes, as I felt the need to cry because I had to wake up. I do this every morning not wanting to face life. Usually I go back to bed and wait for my mom to wake me up viciously. But I remembered I have to take a shower. I turned my alarm off as I got up and ran into the bathroom next you know the door closed on me. I fell to the floor as I got back up. I nocked on the door as I started slamming it.

"Wyatt!! I swear to god!" I warned him

"What Addilyn? What do you swear?" Wyatt said back to me as I could tell he had a smirk on his face

"I will rip you balls off! It will be so painful your dick will shrivel up into a Virginia!" I screamed at him as he laughed. I heard the water turn on as I walked back into my room  I looked for clothes as I saw my favourite black sweat shirt that will hide my scars and my favourite black pants with zippers that goes with my sweat shirt. I grab those as I brushed my hair out wasting time. I heard the water shut off as I grabbed my clothes and went into the bathroom. It was still locked as I banged on the door.

"Wyatt!"

"Give me a second!" I waited for him as of maybe 10 minutes later he came out. I went into the bathroom as he hit my shoulder with his.

"Dick" I whispered as he pushed me. I slammed the door as I locked it. Okay I have ten minutes. I started up the shower as I stripped naked. Here it is. The part of the day I hate. Facing myself in the mirror. I looked at myself as I felt goosebumps shiver at my body. I hoped in the shower to be welcomed with the coldness. I turn the nob all the way to hot as it stayed cold WYATT! I washed my hair quickly as I could and got out. I dried my hair and put my clothes on. I rushed out the door to down stairs. I saw my mom standing there as she looked at me. She looked back down at her news papers as she gave me the "I'm disappointed in you" look.

"What?" I said to her as she looked back at me

"I didn't say anything did I?" She said back at me as I rolled my eyes at her

"You don't have to say anything for me to say "what"" I said back at her as I looked at the time. I slipped on my black vans as I grabbed my backpack. I got my keys as I drove to school. I arrived at the school as I hoped out of my car. I ran pasted people shyly up to my locker. I could hear everyone behind me calling me names.

"Whore"
"Faggot"
"Bitch"
"Slut"
"Cunt"

The names went on and on as I ignore them. I grabbed my text books and turned around. Everyone laughed at me as I walked passed them. My text books fall to the ground because they were pushed down.

"Oops sorry" Anna said to me. The queen bee. Not meaning it.

"Oh it's okay. I'm sorry I was in your way" I said nicely.

"Okay" she said as she walked away laughing with her minions. I bent down and picked up my text books as I walked to class. I sighed as I went all the way to the back where nobody sits and sat down. My teacher walked in as she saw me.

"Addilyn, your early" she said to me as I shrugged my shoulders

"Is that okay?" I questioned as she nodded her head yes sipping her coffee. I pulled out my phone from my bag and went on Instagram. I looked through my pictures to see everybody having the best time of there life. I grabbed my ear buds and played music. I had been listening to music for 20 minutes before the bell rang. I turned the music off and rapped my phone in them as class begun.

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As the bell rang for 2:30 I walked out of class I was grabbed by my hair and was pulled into the bathroom I was thrown on the floor.

"Ow!" I yelped to pain as there was laughter from in front of me. I got up as I looked at Anna. She pulled my head into a stall and flushed my head down the toilet. She dropped my head in as they all ran away I lifted my head up as I took in a breath. I got up as I looked at myself in the mirror. I saw my dark circles under my eyes and my very dull blue eyes that are supposed to be icy. I took my top off that I thankfully had my tank top under neath. I tied my hair back and went into my locker. I grabbed my bag that I awesomely put in my locker along with my phone and keys. I put my shirt in my bag as I walked to my car. I saw motorcycle right beside mine along with a boy my age. He looked at me as our eyes locked. We looked into each other's eyes for maybe 2 minutes as I broke it. I put my bag into my car.

"Not going to give me your name?" He said to me as he put a cigarette into his mouth.

"I don't have one. I'm nobody. It's not like we will meet again" I said as I stood into front of my car door looking at him

"No?" He said to me as I laughed

"No. And if we do I feel bad you even saw me" I said as he laughed.

"Whys that?" He questioned me as I rolled my eyes at him

"Because I'm nobody" I said as I started my car and drove off. I got home as I saw my mom talking to my brother

"Addilyn, you're late"

"Thanks tips" I said as I tried walking up the stairs but I got stopped.

"Addilyn, we're going out for dinner dress nice" my mom said to me as I rolled my eyes.
"Addilyn I mean in a dress" she said as I flipped her off in my mind. I ran up stairs and went into my room. The first thing I did was went on my laptop and went on Skype.

"Andy" the girl said with a hyper voice.

"Hey Em" I said as I walked around my room

"Addilyn, what's wrong?" Emma said to me as I shook my head no

"Nothing. Just shit that happened at school"

"Love, I know that you think everyone hates you but I don't. Tell me" she said to me as I took off my tank top (I'm in my bra) and put on a crop top that I never wear.

"I got dragged into the bathroom got a my head flushed got my hair pulled and saw the cutest boy today." I said stressing out.

"The cutest boy? What's wrong with that?" Emma said to me as I sat down

"Nothing I don't know. What's up with you?" I questioned her as she shrugged her shoulders.

"Same old same old. Yelling parents crying brother crying myself" she said as I sighed

"I'm so sorry Em. I'm driving everything on you and you have your own problems to deal with" I said

"No no no no, Addilyn don't not think like that! By you telling me this your helping your self by letting thoughts out. Thanks you for doing that" Emma said. She makes me feel happy that's why I Skyped her.

"No thank you"

"Addilyn! You better be ready we're leaving in 10 minutes!" My mom yelled as I turned my attention back to Emma.

"That's my cue." I said as she smiled. We said our good byes as I walked down stairs.

"Fix your hair!" My mom yelled at me as she smacked me.

"Ow holy shit!" I screamed at her as I ran into the bathroom. I fixed my hair as I mean of that took two strands of hair and tied it back. I hoped into the car as I put my ear buds in and listened to Twenty Øne Piløts. I looked out my window to see that boy from earlier pull into the house across from me. Just then he saw me and we locked eyes again. Then my mom drove off but before I couldn't see him anymore he winked at me. Holy shit. He's hot. Wake up Addilyn wake up.

So yeah, that's that. Hope you guys liked my first chapter of my first book. It's crazy. But again it's only my first book so be nice! Okay, I'm byeeeeeee