Born To Die [discontinued :( ]

Born To Die [ongoing]

I hate my life…

I am currently a senior high school student, and the end of the semester is near.  My best friend will be living in the city after graduation, and he’ll be studying in college there. Same as me though we’ll be a little far away from each other.

Chester is such a nice guy. No wonder, he’s my best friend. Very talented and has a great sex appeal. Everyone wants to be him. Everyone wants to be his friend. Every girl wants him... Except for me.

 I don’t really have time for relationships. I have this secret narcissistic attitude that is also a factor of me hating the thought of jumping into an affair. Well, I really don’t want to now, not after that incident last year. There was this guy whom I was so in love with, but broke my heart even if we were almost there, if you know what I mean.

 I just really don't see a reason to be involved in an early relatonship. I don't want extra load on stress at an early age, and I don't want someone clinging to me at an early age. I'm only taking care of my dignity. I don't want to experience teen pregnancy like those girls ffrom the show, 16 and pregnant. You get the point...

Chester and I have been best buds since junior high school. We talk a lot, eat a lot and are the same at pretty much everything. I do the talking most of the time. I'm not very secretive. He even knowa when I have my period.

"Ches, help me up. My period's killing me." And he'd stretch out his arms to help me stand.

"Ches, I need to talk to you about something important," And he'd sit there and wait for me to start the talking.

"Ches, I'm so hungry." And he'd pull out a piece of candy from his pocket and give it to me.

"Ches, I'm so sleepy." And he'd let me rest on his back.

Ches, Ches, Ches... His ears are probably irritated already by my whims.

It's the usual stuff. I'd tell him secrets, he'd tell me SOME of his. The guy's very secretive even if he has a best friend. He'd tell me who are his crushes, but not their names. I know, what a lucky friend I am.

But that didn't stop me. I started hugging him to make him feel my prsence, that I'd support him in all his decisions. But he still hates my fandoms.

Since we're now senior students, we've been busier than ever until the last few weeks before graduation. That time, we were both free since there are only practices for commencement.

And after a week of practices, I died.