Chris' Last Thoughts (Miss Saigon Fanfiction)

Chris' Last Thoughts

I sit by the window in my old chair

Reminiscing about the days long gone 

When I was young without a care

When I smiled,  laughed, and had fun 

It was a long time ago, yes

Now, I am frail and old 

But I want to tell you what I loved best

What I had treasured more than gold

I met this girl years ago

In the midst of the horrors of war

At that time,  I did not know

That in one night we'd come so far

We were different, yet we were one

I had called her my dark beauty, my moon

She had called me her light, her sun

Little did we know that we'd part so soon

Leaving her was the biggest mistake I made

Yet she had waited for me 

My memories of her will never fade

She will forever remain dear to me 

I abandoned her,  I failed her

I thought she had died 

That's why I married another 

And took Ellen as my bride

Oh,  if only I had been strong 

Then maybe we could have been together 

She waited for me three years long

I know she'd wait even until forever 

Her name was Kim,  my beautiful Kim

And now she is dead and gone

She died many years ago

She died for our beloved son 

We had a child but I didn't know 

And when I knew, I refused to take him with me 

I had refused to care for him and watch him grow

And all because Ellen asked,  "Her or me? "

It was then that Kim gave our son to me

By shooting herself with my gun

"I can't give him a good life. Please, do it for me. "

Then she died, and in my arms she was gone

That's when I realised I still loved her 

Even with Ellen by my side

And it was too late,  she was gone forever

But I had to try and make things right 

I lived a long life with our wonderful son

I cared for him just as I had promised Kim

But my time is now long gone 

I have done all I can for him

I closed my eyes one final time 

The room around me is dark and forlorn

But still,  no matter,  I'll see Kim again

And our love will finally be reborn