You said to take your hand
You said to take a deep breath
Knowing it was gonna be difficult I reluctantly took it
You pulled me closer and said it was gonna be alright.....but I knew it wasn't gonna be because we were too different.
We did everything together... Although I tried not to get too attached to you but it just happened that it never worked that way cause you were too perfect ....you did everything I wanted even without me asking......
How possible was it of me to think I won't fall in love with you...... even when I knew it was wrong falling for you, I still let myself fall for you cause you put that smile on my face.... That smile I seemed for all my life.
It's surprising I fell for you cause you are like the Mr CEO bad boy and I am just.....me
You said you changed the moment you met me, that you felt it in your spirit..... You begged for me to believe you but I didn't.... Lol.... Stupid me
You said to me "let's have sex"
I said to you "I wasn't ready" waiting for a brutal expression but none of such instead you were surprised, happy and grateful
You said "My love sex doesn't hurt rape does" but me being me said nothing.... You said you would wait until I was ready I felt grateful and happy just thinking about you waiting for me.
All of a sudden every time the thoughts of you crossed my heart a smile crossed my face......
A day I'll never forget 21st October.... Letting you in was the best thing that happened to me...... It was exactly Wat you said, it didn't hurt instead you were gentle and patient taking me with you through every step which made me feel grateful..... All my life I never appreciated myself but you did that for me on that night.
Finally, after letting you in, I thought you were going to leave me but instead you put a ring on my finger and for the first time said the words " I LOVE YOU".
I didn't know whether I loved you or not cause I never experienced love but still I felt grateful. You made me happy, you made me feel contented about myself.... You made me feel everything I never felt, you showed me the true meaning of love.
I can't believe I was soooo stupid to not notice I was in love with you and only did that when it was too freaking late, when you took the fucking bullet for me.... When you were on the hospital bed... when you died for me.
Song: let's hurt tonight by one republic
