The Kiss, True Love At First Sight Part 3

This kiss made my mind have flash backs, from the time we met at the mall, to the time he asked for a hand in marriage. The weird thing, is that I didn't even regret it. Sure I loved Jason, we have a beautiful daughter, but Justin is my true love, I always loved him, from the time I was a belieber, til now. When he let go of the kiss, we said good bye. Justin left, but Jason saw the kiss, we had a huge argument.

"why in the hell will you kiss him, don't you understand that he cheated on you, he is a bad influence, other than that, your a married woman with a daughter, you have a beautiful family that loves and cares for you"! Jason yelled angrily.

"I didn't kiss him,  he kissed me, please forgive me, you know that I love you, not him" I replied. "Alright I believe you, but don't do it again", he replied back. I was crying on the outside, but lying on the inside. I couldn't tell Jason that I'm in love with someone else, Jason loves me to much, we have a kid, we're married, he was right.

But on the mean time, me and Justin were still hanging out. He told me that he knows about me and Jason because, I posted and commented a picture of me and Jason, saying he is my new love. "Listen I'm sorry about the kiss" Justin stated. "oh, it's alright" I replied. "No, it's not alright your married and you have a family" he stated. "I know but, you just don't understand, I'm so mean and rude to say this, but I'm in love with you, I mean, I can't stop thinking about you, after that kiss" I replied. Justin then said he knows because he is still in love with me, he kissed me again. All I can say is that by the end of the day,  we ended up dating again. Everytime at night when I go home, Jason wants to kiss me, but I only allow it on the cheak.

I've been cheating on Jason with Justin for over four months already. Jason hasn't found it suspicious yet of what I'm doing. Everly asked me a question "Mommy, who's Justin"?

Me; Justin is my friend

Everly: if he is your friend, then why did you keep kissing him on the lips, Everytime he brings you here.

Me: Well because that's how people say goodbye, but don't ever do that, because thats only for adults, and don't tell Daddy.

Everly: why I can't tell Daddy

Me: because he doesn't like Justin

Everly: oh, ok, wasn't Justin your ex.

Me: yes, but now we're just in the friend zone.

The day after....

"Babe, I'm going to my friends house" I stated to Jason. "Who's your friend" he replied. "Dasia",  I said. He thinks it Dasia, but really its Justin. "When your going to break up with him"? Justin asked. "I don't know, I'm even lying to my own daughter, that's how terrible I am" I said. "Well what did you say to her" Justin asked again. "I said that our kiss is how people say good bye," I replied. Justin was laughing. I told him, that wasn't funny.

My heart couldn't stop beating, I get headaches constantly, I am going back and forth between Jason and Justin. Justin told me he much he loved me, it was so beautifully said. All this pressure was on me, I couldn't handle it.

CHAPTER : 2

Jason was right though, why should I be with Justin, he cheated on me, but Justin changed,. He struggled through his whole life, the biggest was him getting arrested for drag racing. He changed, there's good news about him. I don't know who to choose.

I went to Allyas house and told her everything that is happening. "oh, my god, are you serious, you should be ashamed of yourself how can you do that" Allysa stated. "I know, but I love both of them equally" I replied. "How did this even start"? Allysa asked. "Justin took me home one night, and we kissed, now we're dating"I said. "Well listen, if I was you, I would just see who I love the most, don't listen to your heart, that's b.s, just do who cares and loves you the most " Allysa stated.

"I love them both, this isn't easy for me, Jason doesn't even trust me, he always starts problems, but I know that he really loves me, we have a kid, and we're married. Justin, well Justin cheated on me and stuff, but when you look at the bright side, he proposed to me, and he changed, there's never bad news about him anymore, he never forgets my birthday, Jason always forgets" I replied.

"So who you're choosing"? Allysa asked. "I still don't know" I replied. I left home crying in bed, thinking of what I should do. I feel bad, especially for Everly. I'm her mother, she shouldn't know what's going on, then in the future, shell probably do the same thing.

I wanted to get away from everyone, I stayed in a hotelfor a week, my mind just went blank. When I came home,  I called Jamie right away. Jamie was furious, but she gave me great advice. She said to me....  "look, I know what your going through, I went through the same thing, remember Oscar and Joey. Well I cheated on them. I chose Oscar, and you know why, because even though he was a pain in the a**, he was such a sweet heart, Joey was so romantic and loving to, but there was something about Oscar that just blew my breathe away. Look at us now, we're married with three kids. Overall, what I'm trying to say, is that listen to your heart, even though Allysa said that's b.s, well listening to your heart, means to do what you feel, so do what you feel, or who ever loves you the most, and who you know you wanna spend the rest of your life with. Make sure you love them though". That advice really helped. I thought about it, I chose....