TRIGGER WARNING: self-harm, alcohol
.:tyler:.
The party was in 2 hours I ended up going home with josh to get ready for the party. "josh what should I wear" I said flopping onto his bed. "Ummm I don't know" josh said laying next to me. So we played Monopoly until we had to leave.
Josh and I got to Brendon's giant house. I could hear loud music from the car. josh and I walked in to see Brendon on the table twerking (classic Brendon). "Umm lets go get something to drink" josh said pulling me away from living room. "what do you guys want to drink?" says Melaine. "um two shots please" I speak up and josh looks at me a little odd then just smiles. "Ok here are two shots" says Melanie. I take the shot with my throat burning and josh and I take a few more rounds. "Hey, I have to go to the bathroom" josh says. "ok I will be right here" I say kissing him on the check. "can I have a water please?" I ask the drink maker. So she gives me a water and it's been 20 minutes and josh isn't back from the bathroom so I go and look for him.
My heart breaks into a thousand peices.... I see josh against the wall kissing another guy. I walk home crying.
I told you he doesn't love you
" you're right I know blurry" I say to myself while crying
you know where your blades are
no im not going to stop
haa... ill never stop remember im always gonna be there with you.
I get home go to my room and cry. My mom isn't home right now she's probably at some random guys house she meet at the club. I start to think about what blurry said and it wouldn't be a bad idea... I go my drawer to find a cloth which has a blade in it. One line. Two Lines. Three Lines Four. I miss this oddly painful but pleasing feel to it. I wrap my hand up and lay back down on my tear stained pillow and just think...
He doesnt love you so just leave
run away
He cheated on you
Blurryface got to me I packed my backpack got my phone, charger, I also took some money that could last me a month or two, clothes and left.
heheeheh I lied when I said a filler I decided there need drama so ermm yea again special thanks to angie for helping me with this chapter ~Emma
Love you, Stay Alive \-/, Dm's always open <3
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Dreams ~ joshler
Fanfiction"it was just a dream" tyler said This is my first story so its gonna suck sorry Hope you enjoy
