Indigo Still

Chapter 4:Indigo&Jude P.O.V

My eyes stared up at the ceiling with a distracted gaze. Loud heavy breathing pressed into my ear as Alfie's sweaty body continued pounding into me. Low growling noises erupted from his lips as he sloppily placed drooling kisses across my cheek.

Holy fuck is he almost done yet?

I closed my eyes as I slowly began to feel the effects from the drugs. A small smile filled my face as he shifted his position and began hitting the right area. I dug my nails into Alfie's shoulder as his rhythm moved faster.

"You feel so fucking good Ind. Are you almost there?" He huffed out.

"Yeah." I lied. Please tell me you're joking? You just barely started…. Come on Alfie, at least let me have this one finish.

I opened my eyes just as he finished. Fuck my life. His body quickly went rigid before falling on top of me. My face pressed into his moist shoulder. I could smell an appalling odour coming from his pits. The smell was unlike anything I had ever been around, and you're talking to a girl who's passed out behind garbage dumps. I hid my nose into the crook of my arm to try to evade the ghastly smell.

"I love ya babe." He whispered into my ear.

"Me too." I muttered.

After a few more seconds he slowly rolled off of me. It felt as though a weight had been lifted, and I could breathe again. I watched him as he started pulling his clothes back on. He had a silly little grin on his face as he began wiping all the sweat off his body. A hint of disgust filled me as that horrifying odour wallowed in the room. I wrapped the bed sheets tighter around my body as he checked himself out in the mirror. So this has become my life.

"So you're good eh?" he asked just as he was about to leave.

"Perfect." I nodded with a half smile.

"Cool, see ya downstairs love." He smiled before heading off.

The half smile from my face quickly disappeared as I stared after him, waiting for something to happen. What I was waiting for, I couldn't say. After a few more minutes of nothing happening, a low gut sinking twinge formed at the pit of my stomach. My eyes travelled around the room which seemed to have gotten colder after Alfie left. A tidal wave of emotions flooded through me as I clung onto the sheets even tighter. Each wave of emotion threatened to overcome the large walls. I felt as if everything around me was slowly swirling away down into a dark hole. The edges of my teeth sunk into my bottom lip as I tried to keep the emotions at bay. However the harder I tried to fight them, the stronger they became. A strong surge of emptiness swallowed my body, causing me to wrap my arms around myself. Disappointment quickly followed. From the corners of my eyes I could see the dark shadows laughing at me with a haunting gloom. Nothing is ever going to change.

An anguish of pain tugged at the depths of my heart. I need to get out of here. Everything is starting to catch up with me. I can feel….. I can't stay here for one more second.

With that I rolled off the bed and started searching for whatever clothing I had left after Alfie had ripped them off. Once I finished dressing, I made my way downstairs to the crazy party.

Smoke packed the small upturned house. Crooked pictures, broken bottles of glass, and vomit littered the floor. Tons of people were dancing and drinking. But then out of the corner of my eye, I could see a few more people coming through the door. Emily, Luke followed by Jude. Fuck fuck fuck. It was like he could sense me watching him, because, just like that, his eyes met mine. Those green eyes. I suddenly felt sick and ran into the bathroom, breaking the stare.

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Jude P.O.V

I instantly feel the heat of her gaze and looked up towards the stairway. Our eyes locked. There she was. My Indigo. My stomach felt as if someone had tied a million knots inside. She looked beautiful as ever. Her legs long,wearing a mini sequined jewel toned blue skirt and a plain black vest top. Fuck me. I wish I could have her. Then suddenly her face froze as she quickly turned round and hurried away. What the fuck is going on? I had to talk to her. That is, when I pluck up the courage to.